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Ch.12: What else???

AN :  Sorry but this chapter is mostly a monologue so for the ones that doesn't wanna read, you can skip but I want 30 votes to my next update . Love u readers

LUNA'S POV

When you think that nothing can go wrong anymore,  life always finds a way to prove you wrong.

When my mind goes back to what I was before and how I am now.  I see the difference clear.
I was selfish, impatient, and a little insecure.  I made mistakes,  I was out of control and sometimes hard to handle.

But look at me now, down, I lost all my self esteem,  I became an easy target to everyone something that I never once was. And it hurts like hell.

It's said that all god does is watch us and kill us when he had lived what we deserved of life.
And I wonder why hasn't he took me yet?
I lived, I suffered,  I should have been up there a long time ago,  next to my parents, where no pain can reach you and fear doesn't exist. Where true beauty lies and happiness as well.

I'm the one that's got to die when it's time for me to die so why does god wanna let me here?

All people,  most of them actually fear death but why does they?
Life is unfair,  death is. It is a door to a new life, and that life is for the ones blessed to live that life.

Death is a bless.
Up there you compare people for who they are, not their looks, not popularity.
Life has no value.
After everything that I've been through I learnt the true meaning of life.
Life is superficial, nothing,  just a thing that covers reality and beauty from the humans eyes.
My life is tough and I am dying slowly day after day, hour after hour, second after second.

If you come to me months ago I would've said that death is something terrible we all go through eventually but now all I need is death, peace for the last time in my life. And this is all I demand.
The two persons that really loved are up there, why am I still holding my life?

I would say MIA.
Mia is truly a great friend a sister that I will never willingly let go of.
She was there for me from the beginning,  she used to cheer me up and it worked at first.
She dragged me to school,  hide my bruises,  took good care of me. She truly is a best friend.
A true best friend!
I remember after that night when I got raped by William I asked her
" why did you do all this for me?  I don't deserve it. I've never done anything for you" while tears made their way out of my eyes.

"You have been my friend" she replied "that in itself is tremendous thing" she hugged me, stopped and looked me in the eyes and asked "we'll be friends forever,  won't we Luna?"
She silently whispered.

Tears wouldn't stop rolling "even longer" I smiled a weak smile.

There Is nothing I wouldn't do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves. It is not my nature!

I love Mia with all my heart and forever I will and just for I still hold hope for a better life but I know that this won't last long.

Love???
A great relationship is about two main things first find the similarities. Second respect the differences.
Well in my case , that quote is very useless. What's the point?

Imagination, romantic movies,  and books made us people believe in happy ever after while in real life happy endings don't exist .
Look at what I've got.
The true love I have been waiting for turned out to be my misery.
The one that was the reason of all pain.

And only God knows, what else is hiding for me!
What else?!

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