Secrets

9

Cecilia POV

I stood infront of Noah's door. Should I go in or not. I don't want to disturb them.

My brothers think I'm some whore what will they think when they found out that I have two kids. Twins?

The door opened and I pulled into a tight hug. I sobbed into his arms. I was so fucking tired.

When will everything be over?

When will I ever be happy?

When will people start understanding me?

"Hey baby your fine okay I'm with you" Noah said. His right. His presence makes a great difference.

Even through we were practically forced to have sex . "I missed you so much" he said. I snaggled closer to him.

After a few minutes I calmed down. "I love you" he whispered. How can he love me when I'm so broken?

"Come let's get you to bed the kids are sleeping" he said and I nodded. "Wait I have to call Jasper"I signed.

I called his number and declined. He'll know that I'm there and I know that he and Jasper will talk.

I got in bed and cuddled with Noah something I missed. I slowly let myself drift to sleep.

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I was in the kitchen with my kids.  Ryker and Romilly. They were sad because I was going back. I promised them that the next time I come I'd take them with.

Unfortunately at there young age know abuse. They are two years they are able to form words. I really don't want to leave them.

"Mommy loves you so much" I said. There a very few people I speak with.

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I had boarded my plane. All I needed to do now is to face my family. I know that they'd probably hate me right now.

I'll just take my clothes and live with Noah. Noah is 16. I walked in the house. My head bowed down.

I knew I was in deep shit. I took a deep and very much needed breath. Suddenly I was attacked by mom giving me a hug.

To my surprise I hugged her back making everyone gasp. Noah had talked to me about speaking. Raising my voice.

"I'm sorry" I whispered. Mom still continued hugging me. Dad joined in. I sobbed not making noise. All that could be heard was my sniffs.

Roman came to me and I tried not to show that I was scared. He hugged me. My body trembled. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that it was half baked truth. " He said.

My body stopped trembling. I gave him a small smile. "I think I'm ready to tell you what happened in private"I signed.

Conan looked at me proudly. After everyone apologizing Conan, Jasper,my parents and I went to their office.