in every universe (nick and Charlie story

chapter 40

Charlie pov:

i waked up feeling like shit, i never woke up like this scared, heartbroken,sad, and want to just stay in bed and never woke up honestly it would be the best right now i don't want to feel like this anymore and it's only been like 11 hours? it's seem like a long time but it's not it just hours not days or weeks or months just 11 fuck hours  just 660 minutes  ,just 7260 and more seconds and i want this feeling to end, i know  this is how heartbreak feels and i want to end it like right now. why can't i just travel in time to august thisyear where i'm going to pack to go to uni and i can start again, have a fresh start , have new friends find real love where the person who's dating me  is a masive  dick  who only wants someone and then talk to his friend about how he's playing with   me and that he don't really love me but at the same time acting like he loves you and and that would gave you anything  but that people do they act like that they love you, they act like they  will be there forever, then they pack up there bags and move away and take they love with them or in my case one day you found that my boyfriend is lying to me and don't want to tell anything and then one day you know that truth and then saw a fucking short video where he tells his frind how he's playing with me and shit like this.                                                                                  and then there is other thing all my friends are in a fucking happy realitionship when i'm a fucking heartbroken misrable fuck who just broked up with his boyfriend ,                                              and  when every body is going to kiss and probably fuck eachother on valentine's day and i'm going probably watch kissing booth, all the boys i loved before, after,holidate, call me by your name, red, white and royal blue, moonlight,young royals etc, and going to lisent to taylor swift, connan gray and olivia rodrigo and read books like icebreaker, wildfire , what if its and hear's to us , the love hyppothesi, loveless, and cry myself to sleep yeah good idea good plans and i think this is not going to happen just at valentine's day but every fucking day 'till i fucking move on and forget about that fucking prick okay i shouldn't have talk like this about him but it's alowed? and it's to my self not to addi or andrew  

i hear my phone ping probably someone messaging me i reacher for my phone which was on a charger because i was on my phone all day and fall asleep around 4 am now is 8 am i slep 4 hours that's good had worst sleeping i opened my phone darcy messaged to the gay couples (and one staright couple)

(8am)gay queen:hi gays!(and you two straight) wanna have a triple date today? at the milkshake park? 

wroted darcy oh i forgot to tell tara and darcy that me and nick is over i sighed opened mine and darcys privet messages 

gay muffin: heyy darcy i just want to say me and nick is over, i know everything now 

lesbo queen: oh..........what do you mean you know everything?

gay muffin: tell you later on the bus 

lesbo queen: you're coming to school?

gay muffin: yeah i need to.......

then a  minute later i got a notification from the group chat 

Nicky Dicky  was removed from the group chat

tara bear:??????

gayy boyyy: gonna tell you later 

tara bear:oh...OH are you okay?

gayy boyyy:no

"why the fuck is my phone pinging so much" said addi from her bed i waited for a few second to reply i looked back at my phone i turn it off "darcy asking if we want to go on a triple day" i said addi didn't said anything she sat up her brown hair sticking up she looked at me "you okay?" she asked i nodded and looked down "been better" i chuckled "i feel like shit" my voice break i want to cry i done that i lot of time last night my eyes are 100% puff and my eyes are tired ugh i hate my fucking life i just to stop this feeling or i wan to just stop feel at all and just be "we don't have to go to school we can stay home and watch movies or-" i cut her off "i want to go to school okay?" i said she nodded and got up from her bed "okay" she walked to her closet and gave me my uniform and she took her uniform i walked to the bath room and got ready i looked at myself at the mirror i look like shit i laugh i took my pj off  and looked at my body i look skinny and disgusting  i'm not blaming nick i would never like somebody like me skinny,disgusting,ugly and full of scars all over my body , can someon elove me with this shits? no  no one will ever love me nick is the only one who can 'love'me he's was my first and only boyfriend i'm going to die alone with 20 cats with out friends without love just alone i guees i will be good at that                      i got ready i took a deep breath opned the door and walked down  to the kitchen where addi was already eating she looked at me and smiled " hungry?" she asked i'm not hungry and i don't fell eating anyway i shooked my head "no thanks"addi nodded "andrew will take your stuff we meet at the gates" she said i nodded at her i looked down but she's staring at me "are you ready see nick?" she asked me just hearing his name is making me tear up i look up  at her she looked concerned "no i'm not and he won't come to school" she looks at me confused "how do you know?" " i know nick and he wont come to school" i look at the time "we need to go" i said addi gathre up her stuff and walked outside 

we got up on the bus and darcy and tara was already sitting  they looked at me worried i walked up there and sat down "charlie" said tara and she hugged me as  i sat down i hugged her back and darcy joined too we stayed like that for a few seconds then tara pulled away "wanna tell us what happened" said darcy while addison sat down i looked at her she took my hand and squzed it i took a deep breath and tell them evrything from yesterday at my house the argument then at the pizzeria the video the argument again and then the break up i ended up crying again and then andrew arrived sat down next to me and hugged me for a few seconds then we started talking but  i couldn't focuse because i was thinking about nick and all the things we done together holding hands, kissing,talking hugging and all of that was just a fucking act i feel like a fool 

the group walked me to my lockers and then we said our good bye and walked to out classes my first class was form i walked there wanting to sit down but then i got and idea i walked to the teacher "umm good morning sir " i said the techer looked up from his paper and  smiled at me "hey charlie, how can i help you?" he said  i hasitated for a few seconds "umm i have  question" "oh yeah?" "yeah so maybe can i sit somewhere else like not with nick?" i said i waited for him to say no but he suprised me "oh yeah of course charlie umm let me see where can i sit you down" he said and looked down searching for something on his papers he nodded "okay there" he pointed next to a boy who i don't know "you are sitting next to him" i nodded and smiled "thanks sir" i started walking away then  "ah and please tell your mom that i can't wait for our dinner"  said mr. lange i turn to look at him shocked "wha-um-okay" i turn back with wide eyes and walked to my new seat i sit down next to the boy he looked at me "um hi" i said  "hi" the guy said "um-i'm charlie, charlie spring" i said  little shyly god  í hate introdusing myself the guy smiled " hey i'm henry, henry adams" said henry i smiled at him he seems nice "okay guys     let's  get started" said mr.lange we went quite  i sighed let's the day begin