in every universe (nick and Charlie story

chapter 41

nick pov:

4 days after the break up all i did that 4 is being in my bed and  just crying, watching movies and crying somemore, watching pictures where is me and charlie kissing, hugging,laughing and i cry everytime i look at the pictures us being happy  sometime i laugh too watching back our life together we were happy together and because of my stupid head we are no longer together and it feels  like shit, heart break is feel like shit, all you feel is emptiness, saddnes, and it feels like this feeling will never stop, that it will never go  away  but i want it to go away i want to forget about everything and just be with charlie, but i can't because my stupidity , all i wanted to do this few days is get up run to charlie's house and hug him and just tell the real truth but he won't belive me that that's  the worst feeling from all of that,                                                                                   the morning after i woke up that darcy kicked me out from our groupchat and last message was   her asking oif we want to go a triple date and it showing me that charlie was the only one who saw the message  so i think he texted darcy what happened and then she kicked me out      and now because of my stupidity i lost the love of my life and my friends, i have nothing left just lonliness and that's what i deserve, and now i have to face it all beccuase it's monday and i can't ledt out one more day of school or maybe i even won't  get into university and i don't want that to happen, so i need to go and see charlie again it's going to hard for me to don't run up to him and hug him and never let him go but again i can't do that 

my alarm ring i groan and turn it down i stayed in my bed for few minutes until my mom came in "nick you need to get ready" she says "mm 'kay" i said but didn't moved my mom sighed and sat down on my bed " you know nick you need to get up and go to school you can't stay home  forever" mom said i sighed and sat up "i know i'm just not ready to see him" i said a tear streaming down from my eyes my mom sighed and hugged me "i know baby but you know you can't hide forever" she said i nodded i pulled away from the hug looking at my mom "i know, and i want to end this feeling" i said " i know darling it's hard but it will go away and you will move on a find someone who's  right for you, you ar-" i cut her off "i thought he's the one" "i know d-" i cut her off "mom please" mom nodded "you know you need to try and talk to him not  now wait a month or more then try to talk to him, i have a feeling that it's not the end for you guys" mom said i nodded she's right i need to tell him and i won't stop until he talks to me i know this is not the end for us , what? what am i talking about he hates me and mom'saying this thing to there kids after a break up right?yeah that's it                                                                                                             mom get up from my bed "go and get ready i will drive you to school" said mom i nodded got up from the for the firt time in days  and get ready   i took my uniform out took it to the bathroom i went in the shower, after shower ge ready and then went down to eat breakfast then went to school 

"you have everything nicky" asked my mom i nodded mom smiled she hugged me it took me by suprise but i hug her back " if anything happen call me then i come for you" she said i nodded "okay" i said i pulled away i opened the cars door i was ready the get out but mom called after me "nicky?" she said i turn to look at her "everything is going to be okay" she said yeah if i belive that. i gave her a fake smile i nodded "yeah" i said i got out of the car i waved to my mom  then i walked to the gates my heart beating like drums i hope i won't get a heart attack from it then my heart skiped a beat i saw darcy alone "oh shit" i thought to myself i looked down not daring to look at darcy and hoping that she won't see me, i walked past her  i sighed she didn't saw me   what a relife but oh boy there is other problem's too psychology i'm sitting next to andrew and there is BIGER problem then that form  i'm sitting next to charlie ohshit                                                       i totally  forgot about that shit this is going to be awkward  i looked at the time 8:54, 6 minutes until form i sighed and headed to the form i tried to calm myself down but i couldn't how can i when i have to sit next to charlie my........ i can't even say that word that was the last thing i was expected to call my char.....sorry,.....not mine anymore.......charlie one day, i though that i will call him my  fiancé..... or my husband but no that's going  to be just my imagination  forever             i was infront of the form i took a deep breath i walked in i look at my seat and charlie wasn't there yet  that's good for now i walked to my seat i sat down on my seat and started scroling  threw instagram and i  saw that charlie posted a photo of a vinyl player, next to the player was  vinyl holder and   in it  was the evermore, red(taylor's version),folklore and mindnight album  by taylor swift and then in playing now holder was superache album by connan gray. under the post was wroten "lisening to to the icons" i clicked on the comment i saw a comment from andrew 

andw.spring:put the fucking volume down i don't want to lisen to a fucking deppresing/broke up songs 

  char.sprngggg: leave my babys alone, i need this songs:) and stfu you're in a happy realitionship and all that left for me is happy realitioship with connan and tay tay                                                                                                                                                                                                                  aadnews:baby leave him alone and charles come over we can lisen  to tay tay together 

andw.spring: i can't  belive that i got you guys a fucking taylor swift the eras tour tickets AND i need to be there to:(((

i laughed they are chaotic  "good morning hamlet 5" said the teacher i put my phone away i looked at charlie's seat he wasn't here well that's great i guess that teacher started calling our names he can take the register  i looked down and done my homework my math homework which i clearly didn't understand if i were with charlie i would ask him  about how the fuck i can do it and he would show me and we could lau gh about it but of course that's just in my imagination and always will be that will never happen again  i tear up again ugh just thinking about that make me like this and i hate it, i just want to  end this feeling or end felling anything att all that would be great  after like 5 minutes he said my name "nicholas nelson" i looked up "umm here" i said the teacher looked up and smiled " welcome back nick, and please stop doing your homework" said the teacher i smiled "okay" i said he started calling names again then after a minute  he said "Charlies Spring" then my heart skip a beat i though i wouldnt hear his voice today "here sir" said charlie and put his hand up so the teacher can saw him i look at charlie was was sitting next to a guy the guy had blond combinated  light brown hair he said somethimg to charlie and he laughed i looked away    from  when did he changed seats and how? and why next to THAT  guy?   i didn't saw much from his but i already hate him , what i saw is that he's into charlie and maybe by next  week they will make out in form infront of everyone.stop nick, charlie is not like that but they can start dating by next month? ugh i need to stop thinking things like this 

the bell ring i gather up my stuff and walked away i let out a deep breath well that was after me but now let's the day begin