in every universe (nick and Charlie story

chapter 57

nick pov:

2 weeks later 

 i stare at myself  at the mirror, i don't know if i look good, or if i look like a depresed peace of shit in this black and white suit "you look good mate" said andrew while looking at me  from behind he's sitting on my bed, i sigh "i don't know andrew......" i say andrew roll his eyes and stand up he's wearing his suit too white and blue with blue tie, which i don't wear, in school is enough for me and i'm not going to wear it outside of school, andrew walked up to me i turn to look at me "I don't know nick you look good, if i would be a girl  or gay i propably would start flirting whit you" he says checking me out i roll my eyes and look at myself "i mean it looks good , but i don't know, i mean i like it but i don't like it, does that make sense?" i say looking back at him he shrug "i don't know but   i mean" he looks at himself at the mirror "i look good  in mine suit, girl is going to run after me" he says and winking at himself i chuckles "you know you have a girlfriend, so you don't need  girls to look at you" i say   then look at myself, he didn't said anything instead  andrew noticed that something is  wrong he turn from funny to serious he looks at me "hey are okay?" he says turn me to look at me i shake my head "yeah i just....." i look down he understand what i wanted to say "you don't belive that you can talk to charlie?" ask andrew "it not just that, we tried, so many times, and never sucsses, he walked away or started arguing with us" i say  with little angry, i'm  just tired of this, i mean we tried so many times, and charlie never lisent, and how can i know that he will 100% talk to me today?  like something chnaged in his mind, whichi don't think "he talked to you once" he said angry too i shrug "yeah while he was drunk out of his mind" i say rolling my eyes  and look at the door for no reason, what i'm i waiting for someone to walk in? andrew speak up which made me look at him again     "okay maybe he was drunk, but you don't lnow that he's a honest talker when he's drun, and waht he told you that what he feel under that ˇ"being asshole "mask" he joke wchi made me laugh too "trust me this is how he feels like, what he told you, and maybe he remebers something from that night,maybe he remebers talking to you an you saying soemthing about telling him later" say andrew i look down "i don't think there is chance for that" i look up at him again "and what if i'm not going to be able to talk to him? what he walks away again?" i say andrew sigh and run a hand threw his light brown curly hair, his hair is not as curly as charlies, which charlies is way better and he's cute( and hot). after a few seconds he speak up "if he walk away then you grab him by his wrist and stop him, and you don't stop talking until you are done, and if he tries to get away then you grab his wrist even harder, but not as hard so it doesn't hurt him, but hard enough so he can't get away" say andrew i nodded " and when you finish you show him the proff what you showed to me and addison"say andrew i nodded i walk to my bed and sit down andrew folowes me, and he sit dwon next to me "and what if   that doesn't work out eather?" i say with saddness in my voice "we can't do this forever, i mean this prom is you and addisons last one, and i don't want to ruin it jsut because of mine and charlie's realitionship" i say he wrap his arm arounf my shoulder "don't worry about that" he say and hugs me  i smile and hug him back  "you know this is just a bro hug" he says after pulling away after few seconds i laugh at his comment "yeah" i say he smile "andrew....." i say seriously he looks at me "nick......" he says smirking for no reason i look down the back at him "if you say that you have a crush on me and you lost interesed in my brother then you can fuck off" he say i laugh "one you are not my type, and second you are in my house" i say he laugh "okay what did you wanted to say" he say  i take a deep breath "this is the last tiem we are going to try" he wants to speak up but i stop him "if you say anything we only have like 1 month left then the exams is coming up, and i don't  want you to spend your last few weeks in high school solving mine and your brother realitionship" i say "nick"  i cut him off " and if i can't talk to him then you, addison and me will stop talking, you are going to talk to charlie okay? and forgot about me" i say he stare at me for a few second then nodded "okay but what about you?" he ask me i shrug "gonna study hard  for  the exams? and pass this year, start a new life in leeds?" i say saddnass in my voice  "so that means that later when we leave your house there is posiblity that that is going to be the last time we se eachother?" say andrew I nodded         tears coming from my eyes, to think abou that, not seeing andrew anymore making me so sad, i mean he was the one who talked  me when i was just the new kid who no one wanted to talk to, he opned his arms and invited me to his little family where i get to knoe addison, a girl who was so nice to me too, who lisent to me about mine and charlie's realitionship,  darcy who made me laugh outloud when she done something embarrassing in the public place, tara who was nice to me too who i could talk about soem stupid theorys, andrew who welcomed me with open arms and showed me how a best friends ahould act like, and the most importent, charlie  whoo showed me love for the first time, who made me laugh, who made me smile, like not a fake one a true honest smile, he was the only  who lisent to me , who my asshole brother cutt off contact with me just because i'm dating someone i really love,he was there holding em while i cried to me, and and doen the samethinng when his father left him, he was there for me, and i was there for him, he was the first person who's kiss felt like fireworks, everytimes our lips met, his sift lips on mine,  his hand in mine, like it was made them to hold eachother, his hugs, like i belong in his arms, and when i was with him  it felt like i was home, when i first met him it felt like i was alive for the first time in my life, like he brought me back to life                                                                                   and if i can't talk to him tonight at the senior prom, then i loose all of this feeling, friends, and then ii'm not going to feel like i'm alive in my life  

i look at andrew and he has tears in his eyes too "so that's it? we are going to give up after this?" he says inodded "he can't be alone forever, and i can't chase him forever"  i say he nods he knows it too " i know" he says he gibe his upsidedown smile  a tear coming from his eyes  "i'm going to miss you" say andrew  i laugh while  a tear coming from my eyes " i'm going to miss you too" i say andrew shake his head "you are a fucker, you made me cry on  the prom night" he says   then  the door open we stand up to look who came in and we see addison in her beatiful  lavender prom dress, the dress looks like a princes dress, like in those disney animation movies  the dress have a cape sleeves and there is flowers at the end of the dress. and her hair is clured up and there is glitter too in her hair,  and her make up is like someone throw a purple pink glitter on her, put it'a looks beutiful, she looks beutiful, like i never seen her like this, she's always  wearing a over sized  hoodies and skinny jeans, but now, wow, theres no word that describes how beutiful she is, and andrew think it too beacuse he's checking her out a tear coem out of his eyes and he run up to her hugging her while saying "you are so beutiful" he throw his arm around her  the he pick her up and spin her around,  "andrew!" say addison giggling   while andrew spin her around, after a few seconds later he put her down addison look  at him wanting to kiss him as she leans in he pull away  whcih left addison in shocke, and honestly me to, i don tknow if they argued again, or there is something between them, andrew smile at addison "your chilly lips stick is on you" he explained addison nods smiling, but everyone knows that it's a fake smile, she pulles away from andrew arms and walk up to me but stop when she saw that my eyelashes is wet "you okay? why were you crying?  and don't tell me that you cried because of how gorgeous i look like" she said i sahek my head "you are gorgeous in this dress, and no i wasn't crying about that" i say she nods "then why did you cried?" she ask me i take a deep breath and look at andrew who was looking at me with the same saddnass in his face like i have  addison look at andrew and then back at me "what happened?" she ask looking at andrew " me and nick made a deal"  say andrew and as he say that i look down tears coming again "what deal" say addison she looks down "that if he can't talk to charlie today then we  stop talk to him, and then me and you are going to talk to charlie" say andrew  i look up at him, close to start sobbing "what? so you think if he won't talk too nick then he will talk to us?" say addison i nodded "somehow we are gonna try to talk to him" say andrew as he said that addison start to shake her head  then she looks at me "so you are going to give up after this?" she says i nodded "yeah, and trust me i don't want it, but this is the best for us, and for charlie too" i say addison look down thinking "you are right" she says                                                                           there is another knock on the door and my mom opened the door "guys it's time for go to the prom" said my mom we nodded andrew and addison gether up there stuff "we will meet you outside" say andrew  and addison and andrew walked away leaving me and my mom alone           "you are gonna try to talk to him?" ask mom and i nodded "i'm going to try, but if i can't then that's it" i say mom stare at me the she hugg me i immeditly hug her back "i see that you love him" say mom   after one minute of hugging i pull away from the hug "why do you mean by that?" i ask her she smiles "if you really love him  then you let him  go, even that hurt you like hell" say  mom i nodded "yeah, i love him so much" i say she smiles "now go, and try to get your lover back" she says i smile and nodded walking dow to the stares and to the car where andrew and addison is already sitting and waiting for me                                                                                                     

there is two posibiliity home i come home tonight,  with the love of my life  or with a without him, and i will enter a life full of darkness and loneliness