in every universe (nick and Charlie story

chapter 52

24 weeks  until october 

tw: swearing (a lot),  mention  ben  hopeless being an ass, becky being a bitch, charlie slaying 

charlie pov:

it been weeks since we had our concert  but the band practise was so funny that we agreed that we are going to have practise every friday and monday and plus we are going ot have other concert too  in the next few months, sahar said that since the winter fest there are more people  interested in our band, which make us so happy and sahar said that there is planing to december that people want us to preform, and for me to preform, so since i sung cardigan  on the piano everyone is dying me to sing in out every preformence which makes me happy but my social anxity is acting the fuck up,which is shit, i mean singing infront of like room full of people made me almost throw up when sahar told me that  i'm going to sing, i mean when he asked me that waht song do i want to preform i thought that she's going to sing it                                                    and it was the best thing i have everydone in my life like hearing everyone singing along e to the lyric made me tear up,and no becasue nick was there, he came and see me proform even when we broked up, that fucking that fucking bastard, god i don't know what he told my brother and best friend to make them talk to him but it could be a big bullshit, and i don't understand how could andrew and addison do that to me? i mean okay i was thinking what tara and darcy told me about  they being alowed being friends with nick and i told them they can talk to him, but it still feels like backstabbing by them, i mean okay the talk but they atleast could tell me about that, and not find by that i want to eat a fucking sushi and i find them there andrew laughing and addison smiling like nothing hapened , like nick didn't broked me heart,and  the worst thing i loved him, ugh fuck it, i love him to this day, and i hate myself because of that i shouldn't love him, heck i should even hate andrew addison what they done to me and in one part i have that anger for all the three of them, the anger is bigger then acceptance about them being friends again, i already accepted me breaking up with nick

"i mean i'm telling you charlie you need to give him a chance" say becky  are waiting for sahar and ben, both of them informed us that they are going to be late, but that didn't stopped me and becky for coming to practise in time, i roll my eyes becky want me to start dat eben just becuse i'm gay that doesn't mean that i like every boy who is nice to me,  i mean yeah ben is a cool and nice guy but i don't like him like that, and i told him taht be he can't take a fucking hint  like most people, "becky how many time should i tell you that i dn't like him like that, i just broekd up with nick, and you know what we had was really speacial"  i said while setting up my drum becky rolled her eyes and walked to me "yeah i can imagina how special it was when  he said that he just play with you" say becky and sitting down next to  me "okay it was special to me" i say laughing and standind up  becky is folowing me "yeah but this thing with ben can be special charlie, he's a nice guy" say becky, got i don't understand why she wants me to date ben so much, it's so annyoing  like everytime i comi to practise all i hear is that "why don't you give ben a chance" and "that he's a good guy" those are the best but becky  also says "oh god you  you would be so cute together" or "oh  guys i ship you so much" those are the worst and  everytime she says it all i want to do is to puch her in her fucking bitchy face, ok i shoukdn't say it, we were friend until me stopped talking because i broked up with her when we were dating and i thought i was straight (silly  little me, and she was really into me, and now that we met she became a pick me bitch, sorry not sorry, and ben okay he's a nice, but oh god can't take a fucking hint, i tell him that i don't like him, he ask me out on a date, i say don't touch my hand, that mother fucker touch my hand, even if i told him that i don't fell comfortiable, he touch me anyway agin wanting to choose violant as s answer but i can't because i'm the head motherfucking head boy and i need to inspire everyone, but i'm almost there to punch both mother fuckers into there face,                                                                                                                                         and sahar, she 's the only normal person in this whole band, like she's the best, she always ask me how i was, and how do i feel about the whole nick thing, not like ben and becky, sahar ask me if i need to talk to her about nick, not like ben and becky, and sahar ask me about the time i was dating nick, not like becky and ben                                                                                                                       so it's safe to say that sahar is the only normal person in this band