married?

thirteen

Kendall's POV

I don't know what I did to make Katherine go home. We stayed like that the whole time. I even leaved her when it's lunch time to get some food but she end up eating a bit of it. I even let her have some alone time with herself cause I know she needed it. I just watched her and she didn't even shed a tear. When the sun set I walk towards her and told her we probably need to go home since Kelsey is probably tired and she's gonna rest which she think is right so she end up going home.

Right now she's at the balcony just sitting on a bench out there. I told her to eat but she don't want to so I just let her drink some water cause I really can't push her to do something she don't want to.

"You can talk to me, you know that" I said while sitting right beside her looking at the beautiful view of LA

"I don't feel like talking" she says so I just nodded and let her stare at the distance like that. I went back in to clean up the mess she probably leaved earlier and I even clean up her room. I grab a blanket inside and went out seeing her in the same position so I put the blanket on her and I heard a soft thank you which I gladly smile at. I sit down next to her once again and in no time I felt her head fall down on my shoulder. I let her stay like that cause I don't want to look like a creep of I'll go and look if she's sleeping or just leaning on me. After a couple of minutes I felt her breathing slow down so I turn my head seeing her eyes shut with her mouth slightly agape which makes me chuckle.

It's fucking cold out here but I feel like I don't want to move cause she'll be awake and she'll get off of me which I don't want to happen so it's better this way. I put my right hand on the side of her face and rubs my thumb over her jaw line and kept doing that to make her feel more comfortable.

"Katherine" I heard someone says making me turn my head seeing Emma standing in there and I saw how she relaxed seeing me with Katherine

"How is she? " she asks walking out towards us

"I think she's better. She was quiet the whole time but then I saw her smile and chuckle and I think that's better than how she used to be" I said turning my head around to look at Katherine

"She didn't cry? "

"No, but she told me she's tired of it " I said not really wanting to open everything up like what she said about falling and flying earlier. I guess that conversation supposed to stay right between us and I don't want to open things up to others if that means it's a special conversation between us

"Did she ate? " she asks in a British accent

"A bit at lunch and nothing for dinner. But I let her be hydrated anyways" I said softly putting my hand down

"Thank you for today Kendall, really. It's really cold out here and you're wearing a thin clothes, aren't you freezing? " she says as she shakes her head and moves closer towards us as she taps Katherine's cheek softly waking her up

"it's alright, it's just for a couple of hours" I said not really wanting to tell her that we stayed in here for almost 6 hours. She kept tapping her cheeks and I heard a groan which is basically Katherine but she get up anyways seeing Emma and she immediately engulf Katherine with a hug and they stayed like that for a couple of seconds

"Let's go inside, Kendall you can stay the night " she says but I stood up and shake my head knowing that they might need some time with each other and I know Emma can take care of Katherine already

"It's alright, I'll go ahead and catch some sleep" I said smiling and hugged Katherine as I rub her back

"You're cold" she says making me chuckle "thank you" she mumbles softly which I smiled to before pulling out from the hug and cupping her cheeks

"Always" I said softly making her smile slightly and that's way better than earlier.

"I'll get going" I told Emma and gave her a hug before walking outside and driving home. When I get there I saw Kourtney at the living room watching

"You're not yet sleeping? " I ask which is literally a dumb question cause she's still watching

"No, I can't sleep" she says as I nod and take my shoes off

"You look pale" she says making me look at her

"I'm just probably tired "

"Alright, go take some rest " she says making me nod as I walk upstairs to my bedroom. I feel like my body is so heavy and even though I wanted to go for a warm shower, I really can't stand up once my body falls down on my bed.

It feels right. Maybe my reason wasn't good enough. Maybe my reason was way too dumb. Maybe I'm just afraid, I'm probably afraid. I'm afraid when it comes to my job cause I work hard for it. I'm afraid that Kelsey was way better than Katherine. I'm afraid that Katherine wasn't really the one for me. I'm afraid that Katherine might take the marriage for granted. I'm afraid that she'll leave once she got everything she wanted.

I'm afraid of so many things, maybe that's why they said love is a risk. It really is. And I kept denying my feelings for her, because I don't want to take a risk. But seeing her earlier, seeing the other side of her. Seeing the broken her, seeing the vulnerable her and seeing the real her.

I knew I can bear the risk.