Toxic
That word alone can't even begin to describe the acid in my lungs every time I breathe in your scent.
The burning of my throat from screaming into nothing.
The ache from day after day of fighting and working and arguing and screaming and continuing on and on in this spiral.
The first time I saw you
Really saw you
I pulled my car next to you as you changed in the parking lot after work
We laughed
We haven't done that in awhile.
I miss the days when your hands would search for mine.
A touch or brush any exscuse to reach me
When you'd stop at the host stand to chat about my recent posts
When you'd wink as you walked out the door
Our first kiss in the parking lot where we both edged closer like middle schoolers
Neither one of us brave enough to lean in first
That same kiss where I finally gave in and grabbed the front of your shirt like I'd melt without holding you
And the growls you let loose
The heat from both of us
The loss of air when we finally pulled apart
The giggles as we remembered our co workers were all walking to their cars around us
The world didn't stop for you and I.
In fact?
The world kept going
And that's what's killing us.
Slowly
Silently
But maybe not so silent
My heart breaks every day we do this.
Because the love we had
It's gone
And I don't know if it will ever be the same
If I'll ever be the same....
I tried to cling to you
But the harder I dig in my nails
The whiter my knuckles get
The more I feel it slip away..
This is why I don't do this sort of thing
Because everytime I try I end up writing another sad fucked up fairy tale
That no one will ever care to read
Or bother to know
And like everyone else
I'll read this
And not head the warning
No matter how big it's written.
C.G.
YOU ARE READING
No one is there
Poetrypoetry book. all the things I've written that I could never say out loud. Some topics may be difficult for some people so check for disclaimers .
