I Need You to Stay

Chapter 10

Hi guys! I'm really sorry I didn't update in awhile. A lot of shit happened that I had to get in order plus my laptop is broken and I hate writing on my ipod! 

I stare up at the ceiling listening to Ray's snoring. It felt so odd sleeping in a room with a bunch of guys who I used to fangirl about all the time. I leaned over to see Gerard spooning Ray in double bed, I had to admit I felt a spark of jealous, and Frank rolled up into a ball on the other bed. I closed my eyes and tried to blank my mind. As I slowly drifted off I heard someone walking in, closing the door behind them. Their light footsteps walking pass me. I guessed it was Mikey. I listened as the door out to the balcony opened and closed again. I turned over and squinted my eyes to see Mikey silhouette on the curtain.

I looked at the red digits on the clock to see it says 2:17am. I knew that I wasn't going to get to sleep anytime soon. I slowly got up trying not to wake up the guys and tipped toed across the room

"Fuck!" I whispered loudly banging my toe against the bed frame.

"Ow ow ow" I said to myself every time I stepped on it.

I opened the door and felt a fresh breeze hit my face. Mikey didn't notice until I stood beside him. 

"Couldn't get to sleep?" Mikey's voice was hoarse

"Yeah, do you have a lot on your mind?" I asked staring down at the light up streets 

"....Yeah"

We sat there in silence both of us lost in thought. I didn't want to force him to talk especially to a girl that he just met.

"I can't handle this." Mikey whispered, barely loud enough for me to hear.

I looked at him and notice that he had bags under his eyes and he looked totally exhausted.

"What can't you handle?" 

"I- I can't get my head around it. I just can't understand how this year has gone so fast. Since this year everything is happening too quickly. Last year we were just guys in an unknown band but this year people are stopping us on the street to take photos and the crowds are gone bigger. I used to be quiet and unknown I was happy that way. Now I don't know how to react to it. Gerard was always a people person he bounces off peoples reactions. I was always the one that was in the background but I can't be in the background anymore because people notice me. I'm uncomfortable with that. I use to love going to gigs and playing bass, have a good time with the guys, but now I dread going to gigs." Mikey sighed like it was a weight gone off his shoulders 

"You should talk to Gerard about this. He would understand what you're going through" I smiled trying to comfort him

"I don't think he would, he's handling it really well" Mikey looked down closing his eyes and taking deep breaths

"Telling him won't do any harm. He hates seeing you like this. He's really worried about you Mikey" 

"I know, I know" Mikey looked over giving me a weak smile 

Mikey and I sat down on the ground leaning against the railing. We talked until the early hours of the morning watching people getting ready for work. Mikey telling me stories about him and Gerard when they were young. 

"What happened?" I giggled feeling the sun hit my face 

"He told the teacher to go fuck himself and walked out of the classroom" Mikey smiled pushing up his glasses 

"Gerard was a moody cunt then" I chuckled 

"Yeah, but he is a really kind and caring person but some teachers just got on his wrong side except one teacher" Mikey leaned his head back down on the railing 

"Which teacher?"

"Art, She always believed in Gerard. He used to stay behind and show her the comics he drew. He never showed anyone else them." 

"Oh" I imagine Gerard being all shy showing the teacher his work 

The glass door slid open and a sleepy Frank walked out only wearing boxers

"What's the fucking time? Why you up so early" Frank squinted at us rubbing his face

"We never went to sleep" Mikey grinned looking over at me

"I'm guessing we should go back in and get few hours sleep" I said standing up and stretching 

"Good idea" Mikey yawned

I'm sorry this chapter is so bad and short!! But I will make it up on the next chapter I promise :)

Grace