I Need You to Stay

Chapter 11

"I don't want to go" I whined

"Come on, please?" Gerard begged holding my arm trying to make me stand up

"No, I would be in the way and it's awkward"

"Lisa I'm just going to a signing, I'll be there for a couple of hours and then I have a plan for us" Gerard gave me a wink and squeezed my hand

"Fine" I moaned as I pulled myself up from the couch.

As we approached the building where the signing was being held we could see large crowds waiting for the guys. There were oblivious to the car that we were in.

"What am I going to do while your in there?" I asked as we got out of the car at the back of the building

"Go shopping" Gerard smiled pushing back his hair

"I hate shopping" I frowned

"God woman! You're so stubborn!" Gerard hugged me from behind and kissed my cheek

"Can you love birds break it up? We're 15 minutes late as it is" Frank walked away towards the building

"Come back here in an hour? Go into the building and wait for me" Gerard said

"Fine, see you in an hour" I waved bye to him

"Bye" Gerard waved back and jogged away to catch up with the guys.

I walked down the street looking completely lost. Girls walked past me and I knew where they were going. They had MCR merch on. I felt jealous that they were going to see Gerard now and I couldn't. I starting to realize that I get jealous too easily.

I went into the music shop down the street. Looking through the albums I looked up to see two girls talking and I started listening to their conversation

"I feel like I'm going to puke butterflies" the blonde hair girl said

"I know, I can't believe we are going to see them. This has to be the best birthday present I ever gotten" the browned hair girl giggled

"Definitely, did you get Kerrang this week?"

"No, Mom didn't have enough money to get it for me" Brown hair girl frowned

"You know the way they show the tweets some people? Well Gerard tweeted something about this girl, um... I forget what it exactly said but it went like "Not wanting to sleep when texting that special someone" and he put a winky face at the end." 

"Serious?"

"Yeah, I don't think she's famous though because this would have been out along time ago" the blonde hair girl said

"She's so lucky, hope she's good enough for him"

"I hope not, maybe he'll break up with her"

"Rebecca!" Brown hair girl playfully slapped her

"You were thinking it" both of the girls giggled and went to the next aisle

My heart sack, I thought I was the only one thinking that I wasn't good enough for him but everyone sees that as well.

I was so stupid to think that I was good enough for Gerard. He so productive and positive to the world, changing teenagers lives. I'm here in my moms shop selling paint brushes. Its so obvious that I'm not good enough for him.

I walked out of the shop deflated. I just wanted to go home and comfort myself with junk food. I started slowly walking back to the building. I went into the back entrance. I watched people pass me in a rush. I could hear the crowd out in the front with the guys.