The Green-Eyed Writer

Author's Note

The Green Eyed Writer

Started: September 2018
Ended: December 23, 2018

If you made it this far, congrats, at taos-puso ang aking pasasalamat na pinili mo itong tapusin.

Challenge sa akin tapusin ang kwentong ito. Wala kasing romance, lol. Pero na-realize ko, romance is not the only kind of love that exists in the world. May love din para sa Maykapal, pamilya, kaibigan, at sarili. May love din para sa passion gaya ng pagsusulat.

Writing is a passion that comes with responsibility. If you want to pursue this for life, you have to keep on improving your craft. Read more enlightening materials (not just on Wattpad), write more, learn more. Learn from mistakes. Get up, keep moving.

Kung mapansin man at sumikat, eh di okay. Kung hindi, magpasalamat pa rin. You will attract the right readers, believe me. Di dapat aim ng pagsusulat dito ang pagiging sikat online. End product na lang iyon. Thankful ako sa appreciation ng aking readers, and will still continue to be thankful. For you, I will continue to improve.

Venny's journey is also my journey. Lahat ng pains niya, napagdaanan ko rin. This is a very personal story for me, kaya ko ito sinulat.

Yung ibang ganap dito, nangyari sa akin in real life, including the losing a friend part, na may kasalanan din ako kaya nangyari iyon. Naka-contribute ako sa maling actions ng ibang tao dahil sa nakita nilang kinikilos ko. And I take full responsibility for this, kahit di direkta na ako ang gumawa.

I forgive my former friend and myself.  Wish ko para sa kanya ay makahanap siya ng totoong kaligayahan, sa pagsusulat man o sa totoong buhay. Thank you for the friendship and love we shared for a while. I apologize for hurting you.

To those I have hurt, intentionally or unintentionally, because of wrong connections, my bad attitude, and uncontrolled circumstances, my deepest and sincerest apologies. I'm not afraid to say that I was problematic, and I was also hurt by what happened. But today, I am learning from the past so I can be better not just for me, but for people whose lives I touch through my writing.

May time na naisipan kong tumigil na talaga sa pagsusulat dito. Pero looking back, I'm proud of myself for not giving up and for the second chance I gave myself. Hopefully, with a more mature mindset and a changed heart.

Thank you for walking with me through this story.

Love,

Rai (Pinayblonde)

P.S. Sharing with you this song by J.J. Heller, called "Braver Still." This is a good song to end this story.