Shades Of Ivy

captive

It's that I want you yet not every second
With me life is uncertain and you've been cautioned

Promises and plans made during our days
It's at night when I'm alone that the guilt weighs

Risks taken as we walk this path of condemning life
Dreams of tomorrow, the future and the afterlife

It's really late and I'm trying to sleep
Yet I get lost in my thoughts that are deep

Filled with ideas and beliefs was my headspace
Now it's rid of life and is equal to a blank space

A victim held captive by trauma and pain
Drowning in suicidal music till ears strain

I'm held captive by a monster from who I can't flee
That devil is none other than me