Ruins of Our Love #wattys2015

Chapter 1

Hi guys! This is my first-ever story so I apologize for errors and whatnots. There might be some rather inappropriate language in this story so.. yeah. Anyways, I hope you enjoy it! :)

"Lexie, love, this is for you" He hands me a bar of Toblerone. Dark chocolate Toblerone. Mmm, my favorite. God, I love him.

I squeal in delight,saying,"Omg! Thank you Daniel!!" I start to open the chocolate packaging and snap the bar into two. "There you go, Dan. Half for you, half for me" I say as I hand him half of the chocolate.

"Hahaha, thanks Lex" He rewards me with a kiss on the cheek. I blush and my heart flutters in happiness.

I lean against him as I savor the chocolate. I don't get treats often. He always buys me stuff to eat. He knows my love of food so well. Thank god I have high metabolism, I would never have to worry about getting fat.

We both have earphones plugged in our ears. We listen to Brokenhearted by Lawson. I laugh watching Daniel acts as if he is playing drums to the beat of the song. The sun causes the copper curls in his hair to glisten. I am one lucky lady.

"Lex, you know I know you are staring at me" He teases me with his signature evil grin.

I blush,"I was just noticing how different your hair looks in the sun"

He laughs then pinches my nose."Ow! Don't do that, Dan!"

"Sorry, can't help it. You know how I love your cute nose" He grins.

Suddenly his smile falters. He looks pale. I panic once I notice the change in his facial expression. "What's the matter?"

"I have to go, mon cherie. You have to stay. I'm sorry," He replies gloomily while calling me by his favorite pet name.

"Where are you going? Can't I go with you?" My heart starts to hurt painfully. "Don't leave me,please. You know it'll kill me." I plead.

"I'm sorry, Alexa. I love you" He kisses my lips, slowly, like he won't ever let go. Unfortunately he does. He turns towards the street and leaves. Only looking back to blow me a kiss and give me one final evil grin, though forced. I blink back tears. I could feel my heart shattering to bits. No..

"No!!" I yell as I jolt awake from the dream. The memory affecting me just as bad. I can feel knives stabbing into my chest again.

I laugh inwardly,"I don't have a heart anymore" but it still hurts. Tears spring out of my eyes. I hug my knees and try to hold it together. He left me, broken, alone and ruined.

That dream was a flashback. One of our memories together during our final year of high school. Dreams of memories with him haunt me every night, ever since he left. The dreams are pleasant but it always ends the same;him leaving.

I finally breakdown into cathartic tears. God, I miss him so much. Why did he have to leave? Even if he did, why did mum and dad..?

Oh never mind. They don't care anyway. Not that they notice the inner struggles I am facing. How I suffer every night. Thinking this makes me cry even harder.

I am truly alone. After he left, I had to create a new mask. One that didn't bother with him leaving. One that didn't seem affected.

Once he left, I made sure my grades remained the same, I went on my days as I usually did hoping no one would notice.

The last thing I need is pity, they don't even understand him and I. Some of my closest friends asked me if I was okay, I said yes and they were convinced.

I smirked to myself. My mask is still flawless. Even my parents don't notice. I have a mask for everything. A mask to put up this persona of who I am. It could be anyone I want, fun, lovable, caring, cruel, cold,bitchy and now, I simply had to strengthen my mask so no one would notice my scars.

The only person I never needed a mask around is, Daniel Carter. My best friend, my lover. Well, used to be. He made it so easy to let my guard down.

The inner struggles I faced back then, he fixed them. Fixed me. Picked up my broken pieces and glued them together. Now he's gone, and I am more broken than ever. Ruined.

What's worse is that, no one cares, yes I have a mask on but even back then, no one believed he and I would last till now. But of course, he's my high school sweetheart, no one believes in that. I fell in love too hard and too soon. Look at where that got me.

Sighing I get out of bed. I know if I go back to sleep, another dream would simply appear. I'll just cry myself to sleep on the couch as usual. Not that anyone would notice.

You know, Dan, if you were here, you'd hug me so tight that all my troubles fade and I would be absorbed in your calming scent. I hug myself, letting the tears fall once more.

"Goodnight, mon cherie. Sleep tight, I love you" I sob as I remember his usual goodnight wish. With that thought in mind, I fell into an uneasy sleep.

So... how's that? Depressing? Lemme know what you guys think! I'll try to update as soon as I can. Nights y'all!

xo EllaJ

P.S. The photo shows Alexa crying :( All credits to the artist who sketch this :)