Let me try something new
Nothing weird but actually good
Think less than I actually should, or maybe even get a girlfriend too
Focus, that ain't happening soon
With your character you'll be forty-two before you realize after all the time that flew, all you had to do was turn into a whole new you
Nope, mmm mm I'm not gonna self disgrace
Cause that's how you get into a depressing state
No, I'm actually going to try to change
Not my ways, but the way I think these days
No more rage, all the rage I'll give it away and clean my slate, cause I'm tired of all the dreams I get
No more hate, I don't really hate per se
But I'll just say, sometimes I really hate somedays
When I think back to all the mistakes I made and realise that I could have done better that day
I really hate
All the times I use to self destruct and not plan my words and say whatever the hell I want
I really hate,
All the times I should've stood my ground and not fall down,
I guess it ain't too late to start
I really hate, recalling all the things I hate
I should probably stop before I start to hate this day
No more pain, I've gone through enough already
It may not be many but I need to stop comparing
No more regret
It's gone, that your chance, you missed it
you should have done more, but you couldn't, you are shy you misfit
Here I go again with regret, I'm insulting myself
I need to stop this and not let it control who I am
I'm bigger than all this, but regret won't make me see crystal clear
I've washed it off me
And can say that I'm proud of myself
So this is it, there's more, but these are the basic four
That make me numb
And also overthink too much
I'm nervous
That if I ever want to go to war
With my conflicting thoughts
Will I come out better or worse
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