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I wake up on Friday morning and I'm not ok. I immediately run to the bathroom throwing up in the toilet. Tears fall down my cheeks as my hands shake. 

I really want to stay at home but I remember that there is two training sessions on for the football team today. I could say that I am sick but I know the throwing up and shaking is anxiety so I better save sick days for when I actually need them. 

I decide to take a quick shower before getting into gym gear as the first football session is on before school. I wear black leggings with a white long sleeve top gold jewellery and my white air forces. I slick my hair into a braided ponytail and go downstairs. 

Throwing up made me wake up early so I go downstairs and watch tv with muffin for a while before I leave. I hear a car horn outside and I get up. I grab my bag with my uniform and my school bag and walk towards Archie's car. I told him that I was happy to take the bus because Carmen doesn't have tennis when we have football anymore but he said that he didn't mind giving me a lift. 

I sit into the car and look out the window. I try focus on not shaking on the way because I didn't want Archie to notice and tell me to go home. We arrive and I get out. 

That's when I realise I only brought a hoodie.  

I completely forgot my jacket. 

So much for trying to hide the uncontrollable shaking. I walk towards the pitch and sit on the sidelines. I don't have the energy to talk to anyone the way I normally do so I just sit in silence. Shaking. Shaking in silence. 

Coach walks out and tells everyone they have match practice today. Meaning they will be running through all the game plays they have. 

For me this means sitting in the cold for 2 hours and walking on with water occasionally. Great. 

Coach blows a quick double whistle meaning I have to walk onto the pitch with the waters. I pick up the holder they are all in and start walking towards the middle of the pitch. My hands are shaking and I'm dizzy. I put down the waters and the players take them. I got to turn around when something is draped around my shoulders. 

Oliver's jacket. 

"Wear this" he says taking the holder out of my hands so I can put my arms into the jacket. He hands me back the container. 

"Thanks" I say the words coming out in a whisper. 

"Eleni are you ok" coach says as I'm about to walk away. 

"I'm fine" I say the words once again coming out quieter than expected. 

"Whatever u say" coach says turning around and blowing the whistle signalling for the players to get going. 

I walk back to the benches to sit down again. Shaking slightly less than before. 

Session is over and I go into school and find Sara, Allie and Juliet. I look down at my phone and see that Carmen has texted to say that she won't be in school for a little while because her parent felt so bad about her breaking her foot they want to take her on a little holiday. I could cry. Carmen is the only reason I got to school in the first place. 

I go through the day taking the classes one at a time. Taking regular trips to the bathroom to ensure that I don't get sick anywhere but the toilet. I just want to go home. I just want to be with my dad. 

I finish the day with Spanish. 

I walk to the pitch for training two of the day. I have just felt worse and worse throughout the day. Getting more and more anxious. Coach sees me again giving me a concerned look.