butterfly kisses and sorrow misses

you can hurt me, but karma can hurt you.

i was gone. for less than a day. and already. she took my place. 

it was wrong. it was wrong to say. it was shit and no i'm not okay.

i feel pain. i feel pain from your words. i feel pain from you.

but i feel more pain for them than i feel pain from you.

so it's okay if right now we're through. 

go sit with her, you do you.

i've loved some of what we've had but you know it was never right.

somehow we would'nt ever ever fight. not until that night.

but did you know, it wasn't coincidence?

it wasn't the luck of our friendship.

it was me. it was all me. i am the reason this is the first time you're leaving.

i put my heart away. kept it away from all the darkness you held.

shielded it from anything but love. that's why i couldn't see.

what an absolute asshole you can be. thanks for showing me.

i'll miss you. i will. but i don't think i'll ever be blue over you.

i felt like i was going to die. the second i read what he wrote.

but when you told me "sorry" and said it like a joke.

i knew it was over. trust me, what you did stung.

sitting with her when you know how i feel.

sitting with her as if i was never real. 

how could you leave so fucking quickly?

you said i treated her bad but i never treated her this shitty.

how could you just stand up and walk away. unless.

unless your heart was never here to stay.

well. anyway. one day. i'll be okay. and you'll be scrolling through the photos.

wishing you hadn't left. and i won't be there to say. "maybe"

"you should've thought about this. before treating me this way."

i'll be better already. happy and healthy. and you'll be crying on the floor.

because. contrary to your belief. i treat Karma like a queen.

and one day. you'll see. she came at you. she never came at me.