it's the fight of my god damn life
and i don't know who's on my side
all the flags look the same
i'm screaming but you can't hear me calling your name
i'm losing the war. the war of my mind.
i want to be greedy
and take all that could be mine
i want to be greedy
and take all your time
i want to be needy
miss you all the time
i want to be greedy
i need you as mine
she left without warning
just dropped everything and ran
and i really, really understand
she was the smartest out of all of you
she saw my face and knew it to be true
she ran away from the being i am
like she never gave a damn
do you not see
that you should too?
my life won't ever
be the same
in three weeks
when i try
to see your face
and remember
i'm no longer
in that place
they're going to have
to tie me down
if they want me to stay
in that new town
so far
so far
away from you
but also
from everything
that's made me blue.
it's all my fault
i know it to be true
i just couldn't seem
to get over you
the voices in my head
say it too
it's all my fault
i can't ever choose
i was fine
now i can't even lie
i'm not alright
not in the slight
i love myself
but i'm slipping
and i'm not sure
if i'll keep holding on to
the rope
i wound
so tightly bound
I might let go
these battles i'm fighting are mine alone.
no gun no bomb no match no sword
just my mind that says i'm not worth saving
and the thought of you so painful it's breath-taking
now i lie here on the grounded
wounded, stabbed, bleeding my heart out
and i shout
once last time
before i close my eyes.
"CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?!"
YOU ARE READING
butterfly kisses and sorrow misses
Poetryi don't know yet i just need to put these things that are in my head onto paper or i might lose my mind have i already lost it? poems I wrote as the clouds were brewing.
