i read what you said now i can't find my head
the tears won't stop flowing oh god i'm losing it
the way you say my name makes me think maybe it'll all be okay
but i know that's not the case
so i'm listening to my music on way too loud
and sobbing while tearing apart all my things now
cause i'm losing my mind and who cares about being right
when all i can think of is the same thing as you
and this song makes me so fucking blue
i want to set fire to my clothes
the ones you know i own
cause you saw them on me
i want to throw the stones
into a hole where i can't find
any sign you could've ever been mine
i want to die.
i want to cry.
don't want to lie.
but i'm not fine.
and it's not okay.
the way i act.
like maybe i can have.
everything i want.
pushing everyone away.
so i can dream.
of a reality.
that may never be.
how can it hurt.
so bad.
when i have.
everything.
i once.
never had.
how can i miss.
your laugh.
when i shouldn't.
think.
about you.
at all.
not.
like.
that.
where does the line
get drawn
between "it's okay"
and "it's fucking wrong".
where do i go
from the one he loves
to the monster
under his bed.
where in my story
do i become the villain.
have i always been?
YOU ARE READING
butterfly kisses and sorrow misses
Poetryi don't know yet i just need to put these things that are in my head onto paper or i might lose my mind have i already lost it? poems I wrote as the clouds were brewing.
