Friends or More? (Book 1) [l. hemmings]

Chapter 21

Victoria's P.O.V.

Michael has calmed down. He had like a panic attack about if Luke found out it would ruin a lot for everybody.

I rubbed his back, "Michael please relax. It's okay. We'll figure this out. You need to calm down."

A few minutes later Calum showed up in my bedroom doorway.

I go up to him, "What are you doing here?"

"What's up with him?" He asked avoiding my question and pointing to Michael sitting at the edge of my bed staring off at the wall, tears still pooled in his eyes. 

"T-that's not your business." I reply, trying to push him out of the room, so I can close to door and speak to him without Michael around.

"I kissed her." Michael says quietly from his spot on the bed, still staring at the wall.

Calum's eyes grew wide and he looked at me and dragged me in the hallway.

"Did I hear him correctly or am I losing it." Calum said.

"You heard him right." I sigh.

"Vic why?" He asked.

"I don't know!" I tell him. "I'm kind of confused too!"

"Did you tell him no? Or to stop?" Calum questioned.

I sigh, "I mean, I didn't stop it from happening... I was the one who pulled away. It happened pretty fast, Cal. I'm so- I don't know what to do." 

This is so awful. I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. Luke's going to kill Michael if, or when, he finds out. 

"Vic! Luke is going to be devastated!" Calum quietly exclaims, his hands nervously running through his hair. 

"He's never going to find out." I reply.

"What?" 

"At least not yet. Do you think any of us are well enough to go through this right now?"

My phone rings in my pocket and I groan, pulling it out. 

"Hold on." I tell Calum.

"Hello?" I answer, I didn't check the caller so I don't know who it is.

"Hey Vicky!" Luke's voice cheers through the speaker.

My heart drops, and I take a deep breath to try and remain calm. 

"Uh, Hey Luke." I say.

"Are you okay?" He asks, "You sounds upset." 

"Yeah, uh everything is great." I reply.

"Okay.. Well I was wondering if you wanted to hang out or something for a bit?" He asked.

"Um, sorry Luke I can't tonight? How about tomorrow?" I tell him.

"Oh, okay. Yea sure." He responds. "No problem." 

"Luke?" I say.

"Mhhm?" He answers.

"I love you." I tell him.

"I love you too, Vic." He cheers, before we hang up.

I let out a shaky breath and ran my fingers through my hair. I could feel tears in my eyes but I refuse to let them fall.

Calum gives me a sad smile and hugs me, "It will be okay."

"I can't lie to him." I tell him.

"We can figure it out don't worry." Calum says, "I'm sure Luke will understand." 

I sigh, "We've been dating for such a short time and it's already over for us. Maybe we should've never become more than friends."

"Shh don't talk like that, it's going to be okay." Calum tells me. "Let's go see Michael."

I nod and we walk back into my room to see Michael still sitting in the same spot staring at the wall. I wonder what he's thinking.

I sit next to him on the bed, "Michael are you okay?"

He doesn't answer.

"I guess we'll just leave him for a bit." Calum says pulling me out of my room.

We go downstairs and join my parents watching tv. 

"Is everything okay? Where's Michael?" My mum asked.

I sigh, "Everything is great, just great."

After a while of watching tv and trying to distract myself, Calum grabbed my wrist and pulled me upstairs. We stood outside my bedroom door.

"We need to talk to him." Calum whispers.

"Yea I know." I reply.

Calum lightly knocks on the door and he doesn't answer.

Calum opens the door to Michael sitting in the same spot still.

"Michael, what's going on?" Calum asked.

"I've ruined everything." Michael replies.

"No you haven't Michael. It's going to be alright." I tell him.

Well, really, who knows what this has done? There's way too much going on, this isn't something I want to deal with. I'm not sure how to.

And will we tell Ashton? Or should we keep it quiet? Should we really be hiding this from Luke? If we were to tell Ashton and Luke found out, he'd be so upset that his friends all knew and nobody told him. I feel like I should just tell him, to get rid of the worry of him finding out, and the guilt both Michael and I will have if nothing is said. 

I look over at Calum comforting Michael.

He feels so bad. 

I just really hope that this doesn't affect anything too much.

Who am I kidding? Obviously this is going to fuck things up. I don't know why any of us would think it wouldn't. We've seen how Luke can act when it comes to me. Luke and I will be fine, I hope. 

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