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The Girl on the Inside

I'm thinking of you again,
Wishing I was in your arms again, Wishing I was by you again.......
And I'm missing you like I always do.......
I hope I pass this year, so that I can get one more year closer to 18,
One more year closer to graduation........
One more year closer to spending forever with you........

Everyday, I spend my free time in my head,
Talking to you, even if you're not there.
I talk to myself, just to pass the time.
I know to you, it might sound weird, but for me, it's how I deal with being lonely.

I'm lonely even if the room is full with people.
I'm lonely even if there are people around me.
I'm lonely because you're not there.
I can't see you in the crowd,
I can't find you,
I frantically search for you,
When I see you, I feel better because I know you'll be there whenever I need someone.

To me, life's kinda like a dream.
What I mean by that is I never want to wake up from this.
I never want to lose you.
I never want to hear that your gone.
I never want to see you hurt.
I never want to hear you say goodbye to us.......

When I close my eyes, I feel like I can just let go.
Let go of the pain of life.
Let go of all the hurt.
Let go of everything that I know......

When I close my eyes,
I can feel you near me.
I can see you.
I can hear your voice.
I can taste the love in every kiss we share.
I can feel you embrace me in your arms again.

With every kiss we share, I feel so alive,
So that I can forget about life,
Forget the pain,
Forget everything for the moment,
And focus on you and me.

When I close my eyes,
I think about my life,
I think about my friends,
I think about my future,
I think about my family,
I think about you........
I think about you from the time I open my eyes, to the moment I close my eyes.
I think about you even if you're by me.
I think about you even when you're on the other side of the wall......

When I see you leave,
I feel the pull to be by you,
I feel the pull to be near you.
I feel the pull to be with you.

I feel the pain start to enter,
I feel the sadness enter my brain.
I feel the need to be by you grow as you get farther away from me.
I feel the need to cry increase as you get farther away from me.
But I stay strong, so that they can't see that I miss you,
So that they can't see me cry,
So that they can't see that I'm weak without you.

These are the thoughts that are lost until I open my mind and see what my mind was doing during the  time I spent with you.

These are no longer lost thoughts, but they are now found thoughts for I have found my voice to show you that this is what I hide inside,
These are my thoughts that you should know about the girl who I am inside.......

So this is who I am when your not around me.
This is who I am when your not by me.
This is who I am when I feel so  alone without you...
This is the girl on the inside...