A/N: I wrote this while thinking of a friend of mine who might be struggling with this..... For all who are struggling with this, this is for you. And this is different than the first thing I put on here.
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I am broken,
Shattered even.
I never felt this way before,
And I hate this feeling.
The words you've said,
Shook me to my core.
I feel my heart break apart,
Exposed and scared forever.
I've managed my pain,
Faked a smile here and there.
Even faked a laugh for the sake of the pain I feel.
At night,
I feel the weight of the situation.
I wait for the day that you say that you're sorry for hurting me.
And I cry in pain, because it might never happen.
As I cry in pain,
I weigh my options of staying or leaving.
When I make my decision, I hear your voice calling.
During the day,
I pass friends with a fake smile.
The fake smile tells them "I'm ok"
"Nothing's wrong with me...."
I then pass you,
You ask if I'm ok.
I reply with the same answer that I gave you when you broke me.
Later that night,
I pack my things and get ready to jump.
I find something that will make the escape as slow as possible.
I start to cry,
Knowing that I can't get out of this.
Turn my music to repeat,
So that they can see that I left without pain.
Then, it dawns on me that I shouldn't do this.
I shouldn't hurt them like he hurt me.
I cry even more as I'm relieved that I backed out at the right time.
One more day in this hell hole,
I think to myself as I put my stuff back.
One more day of life,
One more day of pain,
One more day of being alive,
One more day of being broken.
One more day of crying,
One more day of sleepless nights,
One more day of seeing you,
One more day of lies.
But overall, I'm glad to be alive.
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Thơ CaHey guys! I'm new to wattpad but I do have some talent in writing poems so I'll attempt to stay on top of my posting and what not.... Anyway, enjoy!
