Heart Held Captive

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

*Roman’s POV*

I couldn’t help but be in awe of her. I had experienced all different types of love; the everlasting love of my parents, the loyal love of my friends and pack but then, there was her love – something that didn’t compare to any of the other love’s I had ever felt before. 

The way my name rolls off of her lips sends shivers through me, the smell of her body makes my heart beat hard against my chest and her eyes – her eyes are something I get lost in on a daily basis and just moments ago I was able to absorb every last bit of her. Nothing compared to that moment when our two bodies felt like one, everything fitting together like a puzzle piece. I never knew that I could love someone this much after what happened with my family. I thought for sure that the gods would see all the wrongs I had done and would curse me to live a hollow, miserable life.

A knot tangles itself deep in my stomach as I think about the faceless women I slept with when I thought she was never coming, that I would never have my mate. I feel the urge to throw up and quickly supress it, the thought of being with anyone else sickens me to my core. How was I to know that I still had a chance? How was I to know that this goddess like creature was waiting out there for me?

I start to stroke her hair as she sleeps curled up on my arm, a smile reaches my lips when I think back to the moment we met. I knew before I walked through the door that once I entered that room that my life would never be the same. As soon as our eyes met I felt the connection, automatically the word ‘mate’ slipped out of my mouth claiming her as mine and soon it wasn’t my brain controlling my feet but my heart, I swooped her up into my arms wanting to be as physically close to her as humanly possible. The kiss was amazing, electrifying tingles pulsed through my body warming up every part of my body they touched, and it wasn’t until that kiss that I knew that every other kiss I had experienced had been dull in comparison. It took everything I had not to have her right there and then but when I felt her push against me I knew something was wrong.

I hadn’t noticed it until we broke apart, until I looked at her truly that I knew she was human and that she wouldn’t have a clue with what was going on. Straight away she started asking question and I knew I had maybe done the wrong thing by kissing her, my mind was telling me it was the wrong move in trying to get her trust but my heart was telling me it was the first right thing I had done in a long.

I chuckled to myself when I thought about the first time she tried to escape me, she was feisty and I thought it funny that the gods had put me and her together, Tera being so wild spirited and me being ‘the caveman’ that I am, as Tera would say it.

It also made me worry, how was I supposed to tell her about our kind and what she meant to me when she was trying to fight with me and escape me every chance she got? Dominancy didn’t work with her and that was my way of life, I knew I had to be different with her. I had to show her what she meant to me through compassion and make her know that I would do anything for her.

She shifted in her sleep so now she was facing me. I watched as her barely covered chest rise and fall with each breath, I watched how every few minutes she would scrunch up her eyebrows and bite her lip and then suddenly release them, I could watch her like this for eternity and never be bored.

She moved closer to me and her dark chocolate her fell from her face and revealed her neck and I could see the exact spot where I will mark her as mine, for all to see. I traced my finger across her neck and down her shoulder blade, making delicate patterns. Her skin was warm under my touch and I couldn’t help but want her body closer to mine.

My hand made it down to the curve in her waist and I softly brought her closer to me. I breathed in her sweet vanilla scent and I closed my eyes and bit my lip, holding back my desire to wake her up and have her again tonight. She moaned a sweet moan in my ear and I bit my lip harder drawing a drop of blood. I could feel my wolf inside of me pushing me to take her right here again but I knew not to and to just ignore him.

‘Think of something else, ANYTHING else’ I thought to myself trying to supress the urges. Looking around the room trying hard to find something to distract me. My eye caught the seat that sits in the corner of our room ‘That’s where she said it’ I thought happily to myself. ‘That’s where she said ‘I love you’’. I thought I would never hear those words directed at me again. I couldn’t think of time where I had gone from complete and utter depression, to the happiest man on earth. ‘She loves you, she wants to be one of us and she was born to be your Luna’ I repeated in my head. As I repeated this over and over again in my head I couldn’t help but look into our future a bit; the night that I propose, the day we speak our vows binding us together, the day we have our first child. It went on like this until I thought of us all old and grey sitting out on the porch watching our family live happily.

I knew everything wasn’t going to be as simple as I thought it in my head, we still had a lot to deal with here in the present but it was just too tempting. I looked back down at her to see her still fast asleep, snuggled right up against me.

“I love you, Tera” I whispered to her and I kissed her gently on her forehead. I couldn’t help but lick my lips afterwards, it didn’t matter where I kissed her, she tasted sweet all over. I placed a kiss on her cheek, on her jaw line, on her neck. Just as I was about to place one on her shoulder I could feel the push of my wolf wanting me to take it further, my vision blurred and my teeth ached. He wasn’t backing down on this one, it wasn’t until I felt her blood rush into my mouth that I had realized what I had done.

She woke with a scream and pushed herself away from me. “Tera, I’m so sorry. I didn’t- I didn’t mean to” I tried to pull her back over to me so I could help her stop the bleeding. “What did you-” She started to yell at me and then her face froze, her body hunched over and she fell back onto the bed.

“Billy! Bring Katrina to my room now!” I yelled through the mind link. “Right away Alpha. What’s happened?!” He asked with panic clear in his voice. “I-I bit her, I didn’t mean to do it now but I did!”

‘IDOIT!’ I thought to myself as I slapped my forehead, I couldn’t help but be in pain with her. She gripped her stomach so hard I thought she might bruise herself. How stupid could I be to start the shift now?! Without a witches hand?!

“I’m sorry Tera! I’m so sorry” I tried to cradle her but suddenly her body went into an uncontrollable fit. I heard the door slam open and watched as Billy and Katrina rushed in. Billy pulled me off the bed so Katrina would have more room but my eyes never left her.

The bed was now soaked in her blood and I felt sick at the thought that I caused her this much pain. I could hear Billie’s faint voice in the background trying to calm me down but it wasn’t working, I was to blame for her pain. If I just had any self-control this wouldn’t be happening right now, she wouldn’t have to go through the shift in the painful way. Her screams filled the room and I felt like someone had punched me in the gut.

“I’m sorry Tera, I’m so sorry”

A/N

Ta-Da chapter update! So what did you think? Did you like reading from RomansPOV? would you like to read more from him?

I hope you enjoyed the chapter

Deborah ^.^