Connections

C h a p t e r 13

JuJu Sanders
November 8, 2019
6:30 p.m

I sat in the dark reminiscing the night that happened a couple of days ago. It felt as if I couldn't seem to have the events from playing in my head.

I laid in the bed in pain barely can move on my own because of the bullet hole is still healing. I sat alone since I came back to the hospital with the help of my stay at home nurse.

I haven't heard from Bri since the day of the incident and it was honestly killing me. I was hurt and only wanted the person I loved around me but she wasn't there.

Flashback
I laid in the hospital bed in pain and barely could move on my own. I was only able to consume liquids right now. I didn't wanna hear nothing from anybody but Bri.

"Hey my strong bitch!" Maylee said as she came through the door holding flowers and balloons. She held a wide smile on her face while she placed everything down before coming sit in the chair on side of me.

"Hey loves." I cleared my throat placing a tight lipped smile onto my phone.

"How are you feeling? The doctor said that you're doing good. You know I been telling you were a miracle since I met you." She smiled rubbing the hair out of my face.

"Thank you. Where's Bri?" I asked but seeing the look on her face told me the answer that I needed to know.

"She just needs a moment to get her words together. She still kinda shaken up a bit from the incident." She tried to explain but I wasn't listening to all that.

"No for real I know when you tryna downplay something." She gave me a sympathetic look before grabbing an envelope from her purse handing it to me.

I took the envelope in my hand opening it unfolding the paper inside of it.

Dear JuJu

I am truly sorry that I wasn't there for you when you woke. I stayed at the hospital all night losing my mind trying to figure out it you were going to make it or not.

When the doctor came and talked to us and notified us that you were doing fine I felt like my heart was doing back flips.

But, I had to think about all the events that took place and I think it's best for us to go out separate ways. I can't be with you knowing that things like this will happen.

I feel like I would be better off with a man. Someone could hold and protect me. I can't find a sense of protection from you JuJu. Just look at the situation that you're in you couldn't protect me and I couldn't protect you.

I don't know when Imma see you again JuJu but I pray you have a speedy recovery. I am truly sorry that I'm inflicting more pain on you right now but His has to be done.

Love Bri

I felt my heart break and tears cloud my eyes as I read the letter. How could she? I was in this situation because I would've did anything to make sure nobody tarnished our relationship. But she threw it away just like that.

"Ju-" I cut her off placing my hand in the air.

"May I don't wanna hear it right now. I really don't." I shook my head before looking around wiping my tears.

"I didn't know she gave me the envelope and told me she'll be right back but to make sure it was given to you. I love you JuJu and I will make sure your business is taken care of while you're down." She smiled rubbing my arms.

"Have you met my staying nurse?" She nodded before smiling.

"She a pretty girl and very kind-hearted. I like her vibe but you never know people real personality. Her name is Zonia." Right when she finished talking a woman walked into the room.

"Goodmorning JuJu! How are you feeling this morning?" She walked over to the bed with a clip board before messing with my Iv.

"I'm doing alright I guess." I shrugged my shoulders before looking straight at the wall ahead of us.

"Oh no we gotta fix that. I'm Zonia and I will be your nurse while you're here and when you return home."

I nodded my head not trying to be rude but I wasn't in the mood for nobody to talk to me. My girlfriend left me stranded with only a note. At least she could to was talk to me face to face and maybe I would've understood better.
End of flash back

I have been home for a few days now and I was completely over it. I couldn't do nothing for myself and Bri has yet to get in contact with me.

The only highlight of my day has been Zonia. She's been making sure that I've been in a good mood everyday and that I get back to my normal self everyday.

It could be little things that she did like telling me jokes or watching funny videos with me. It was something so little that would brighten my day.

Maylee came and visited me when ever she had free time. I knew it was draining work to take care of my company alongside it hers but she was doing a damn good job.

My physical therapist has been coming since the 3rd day I was home. I can feel and improvement in my self again. It was small but I had to take small steps to get to something bigger.

This was only a small set back but I promised myself that I was gonna come back 10x harder. I was gonna prove that nothing could hold me back from what I meant to do.

I miss Bri so much right now and wish that she was helping me and supporting me on my journey to get better again. But, she isn't and I have to charge it to the game. It is what it is. Whenever she wanna come back and talk to me I would be here. But, I won't be waiting to long for her.

The only way left to go was up. I was destined to get there wherever Bri was here or not.

Zonia