well
you see, as normally i was just reading a fanfiction (wolfstar if u wanna know)
and
it made me think
like
it made me realise, that i have the internalised expectation to at some point feel sexually attracted to someone
the perspective that having a crush on someone and things like... dreams about them will have to happen to me
and i hate it cause especially the thought of being in love with someone makes me so uncomfortable
and still something inside me tells me that, in order to grow up i'll have to do... have that
that i'm a child and that sexual and romantic attraction is something, everyone has and-
that it's a part of growing up to have a crush and ... well sexual thoughts and feelings
that without it i'll forever be a child
is that internalised ace-/arophobia?
or is that just society fucking with my brain?
like, rationally i know that i most likely will never have a crush on someone
but something tells me that i'll have to
and i do hate that
hrg
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aroace rants
Randomhi! i'll use this to... rant about things that happen to me because no one knows about aromanticism and asexuality ... yeah and just daily life struggles of me, an aroace because right now i'm just spamming my friends with all of it and they're pro...
