it only hurts when i laugh

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘦𝘴

There are certain things one can hide
There are also things that we
can't help but describe
All of us have certain songs,
melodies inside
We have words to paint
feelings in the deepest vibe

But where is our voice
when we needed it?

Nowhere—it has deserted us
on the highest peak
It was gone on the moment
we opened our mouths to speak

There are things we could have said
There are those that we regret we ever did
Because each of us have melodies in our head
We have prose living in our desire to want need

But where is our song
when we need it?

Nowhere—
because of the chaos
our life brings
It died, like fire
doused with water
became nothing
Maybe it's just a feeling
a forgotten melody
no one could spring
But one thing is for sure
what if that's what the future
holds for our upbringing?