it only hurts when i laugh

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"Why?"⁣
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"What do you mean 'why' ?"⁣
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"Why did you do it?"⁣
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"That's easy. I did it because of you."⁣
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"But why?"⁣
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"Because I like making you happy."⁣
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"Why?"⁣
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"Because you deserve it. You deserve a lot of things."⁣
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"Why me, though?"⁣
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"That's easy, too."⁣
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"How is that easy?"⁣
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"It's easy, because you're the only one who is here with me."⁣
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"Does that have a connection to why you did it?"⁣
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"Yes. It has everything to do with it. I like making you happy. I like how you smile whenever you're with me. I like remembering that night when we started what we have. I like all of it, so I did it."⁣
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"Would you leave then, now that you've done it?"⁣
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"Why?"⁣
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"Because everybody does. They do after they told me they have done it."⁣
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"Then they don't deserve you. I don't, either, but I want to try."⁣
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"Its... ordinary, that kind of promise."⁣
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"Why?"⁣
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"Because you're not the only one who said that. They all did. And now I'm alone."⁣
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"Why?"⁣
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"Why what?"⁣
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"Why are you afraid?"⁣

"Because being in pain sucks. Abandonment leads to hurt. Hurt leads to pain. I'm scared of getting hurt because it's hard."⁣
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"So you don't want to do it anymore?"⁣
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"No."⁣
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"Then what do we have? What are we doing?"⁣
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"Nothing."⁣
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"No, that's not true. Because I am doing it now. It doesn't matter to me what happened to you in the past, but if you would trust me with your heart, I'll make sure you'll never get hurt again."⁣
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"They all said that. All of them."⁣
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"Yes, but it's me who is saying it. I'm not them. I do it every time. I do it whenever you can't do it to yourself. I continue doing it even when you're cold and distant. I still do it when you demand unreasonable things. Even when you doubt, I am still doing it. And I'll never stop, because I like doing it."⁣
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"Why?"⁣
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"Because you're the one. You deserve what I'm doing."⁣
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"Why?"⁣
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"I want you to know that whatever you do, I'll never stop doing it. I will always, always do it."⁣
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"Then tell me."⁣
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"Darling, I will never stop loving you."⁣