Trauma

CHAPTER 10

Hi, sorry for the late update. I was going through a mental breakdown. I was not in good condition because my cat had died.

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Nunew's POV

I had been in the hospital for 3 days already, it was starting to feel suffocating inside the four walls. I still couldn't move on from the traumatic incident, it's like it was pasted in my mind. whenever I let my emotions free, it pulls me into the darkness. All those dark thoughts at the back of my head made me sick. Should I die? will it make a difference? huh, of course, it won't. I'm a nobody in this world. I'm only burdening P'Zee; he always stops by in the evening only to see how cowardly I'm living.

"Excuse me, I will be coming in." A woman at the door brought me back. I quickly got in a sitting position. opening the door Mrs Waan came in with her signature smile. I greeted her and she sat on the chair beside the bed.

"How are you Nunew? Any improvements?" She asked still giving me a smiley face.

"Khrub, I'm good, Mrs Waan. How are you?" I lied returning a small smile.

"Great. I have checked your tests result from yesterday and you are healing quickly. Now, you can decide whether you'd still like to stay in the hospital or be discharged. But anyhow you have to visit the hospital for daily checkups."

"Thank you Mrs Waan but I want to get discharged. But is it necessary for P'Zee to come here" I no longer wanted to burden anyone.

"Well, Yes. He is registered as your guardian. So, we need his signature on the discharge papers. I will inform Zee and then we can proceed to discharge papers. It will get finished by the evening."

"Okay Khrub, thank you." I bowed to her.

"No no. It's okay. Then I will be up for my rounds to other wards. Please take care of yourself. It will be hard to cope again but you can do it. You only have one life, don't let it go to waste." She patted my head and went outside. I sighed resting my head on the backrest of the bed. Unfortunately, My life is already a waste. I closed my eyes trying to sleep once again to avoid unnecessary thoughts.

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I woke up feeling someone caressing my hair. I slowly opened my eyes to see the person sitting beside me. It was P'Zee, looking at me with caring eyes. I dared not think of getting my hopes up. Why would he like someone who is already used and dirty? When he noticed I was awake, he flashed me a big smile.

"You are awake. I have signed the discharge papers. Rest for a while then we will go home." He caressed my hair softly. "I'm sorry P'Zee." his face turned bitter and he frowned."Why?" he clearly sounded annoyed and frustrated. " I- I'm burdening you."

"Nunew, I'm here because I want to be.No one forced me I'm here of my will so don't think like that. Do you want to go or would like to rest for a bit?"

"I want to go. It's suffocating here."

"Okay, then come on, I will help you get up."P'Zee held one of my arms and rested his other hand on my waist. Eventhough I knew he won't hurt me in any way I still couldn't stop myself from flinching when I felt his touch. P'Zee's body went stiff and now I felt guilty.

"Nhu p-perhaps... are y-you afraid of me?" he hesitantly asked me. I turned to him panicking shaking my head. " No n-no P'Zee I-I can e-ex... explain. "

"Calm down, I understand. I was just asking. if you feel uncomfortable with my touch you can tell me, okay?" P'Zee stared at my eyes not moving. so, I could only nod my head.

After discharge, P'Zee insisted to take me to his house because he was afraid I won't be able to take care of myself alone. At first, I refused to accept his help but P'Zee is stubborn so I ended up agreeing too. Now we are heading to my condo to pack my stuff.

Reaching the door of my condo; I unlocked the door and my room was a mess. the clothes were on the floor, and bedsheets were torn and scratched everywhere on the wall.

"Nhu, do you have a pet?" P'Zee spoke from the back. As if hearing P'Zee a cat came outside from the kitchen.

"N-Not a pet but I-I found it at my doorstep."

"Ahh, you can seat somewhere comfortable I will sort out this mess."P'Zee took off his coat and handed it to me.

"I can clean it myself. Y-you, don't have to." I felt embarrassed that he had to clean my room and that I will be seating like a useless person. I had already troubled him a lot.

"No, you won't. I can do it. Now sit here." P'Zee made me sit on a chair. Rolling up his shirt's sleeve he started picking up the clothes dispersed on the floor. It nearly took half an hour to tidy up the room. Now P'Zee was panting rubbing his back.  His back must be hurting from bending all this time. I  feel bad that he was like this because of me.

I was so into my thoughts that I didn't notice when P'Zee came face to face with me. His dark brown pupils stuck on me making me flush. I gaze back at him only to look away again. His burning gaze makes me feel small in front of him not that I'm tall in general but I feel I look like a cat in front of him.

"Nhu-"

"Meow" Did I meow just now?? no, it can't be. I looked around the room and found the source of that sound earlier. The cat was looking at us from the corner.

"Ah, What will you do with this little guy?" P'Zee moved away from my face. Finally, I let my breath out I didn't know I was holding down. "W-Well... C-can Nhu k-keep it?"I stuttered. Afraid he won't let me keep the cat. But I have to follow his rules because I will be living in his house.

"Yeah, Of course. Then shall we go? It's almost dinner time." I just nodded to him and we headed back to his car parked in front of my condo.

"I will ask someone to bring your belongings to my place. For now, I only packed two pairs of clothes. It should be enough for tonight." P'Zee explained smiling at me and opening the car door for me. I silently sat down with the cat purring in my lap. It sure looks like a cute guy.

"Give it to me. It needs to be examined by a vet. It will be dangerous if it is infected." P'Zee took the cat from me and put it on the back seat inside a basket."B-But..." I wanted to protest but I dare not.

"Alright, just a little patient. It won't be long from here to a vet clinic. Till then be a good boy for me, Okay? Don't pout." P'Zee patted my head. It made my heart skip a beat. Did he say I'm a good boy? No, he said he want me to be one. But he patted my head, looking at me as if I was a treasure. Though we all know I'm not a treasure but a used thing that is left to throw away. I shouldn't dream of an unreachable person like P'Zee, should I? It will only hurt me. Besides, he deserves someone better, so why would he like to spend his life with someone like me? Chawarin, wake up. He is out of your league, don't make your life more miserable than it is.

He is everyone's dream and I'm a nobody. We don't match.

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