Game Over

Chapter 09

Chapter 09

I had to constantly remind myself to be cool around Lui. No snide remarks nor passive-aggressive comments. Because once again, I was reminded of how quickly he could just decide to leave me. Paulit-ulit na naririnig ko sa utak ko iyong sinabi niya sa akin na kung uncomfortable ako sa kanya, he could just leave...

And how easy it was for him to just tell me that he'd leave.

As if that wouldn't disrupt life as I knew it.

Ang unfair... pero ginusto ko naman 'to kaya wala akong choice kung hindi ang tahimik na magreklamo.

'Study out???'

'Can't sorry :((( huhu may mock bar kami'

'Oh okay. Good luck, babe!'

I smiled at Alisha's response. Buti na lang naiintindihan niya na as much as I wanted to study out with her, sobrang nalulunod na lang talaga ako sa sobrang daming kailangang gawin for review. Parang wala na akong time to relax. Ni hindi na nga ako makauwi sa house namin kasi kapag uuwi ako, I felt guilty like that's one less day to review.

Sana talaga pumasa ako. I couldn't and didn't want to go through this nightmare again!

Nung magdismiss na iyong review class namin, nakita ko na naunang lumabas na si Lui. Sumunod ako sa kanya, but nakita ko na nasa CR siya kaya naman naghintay ako na maka-labas siya. May mga nag-aya sa akin na magdinner, but I declined them all. Not that ayoko silang kasama magdinner, but kung hindi si Lui ang kasama ko, I'd seriously rather be in my condo. Ganon iyong level ng pagod ko.

"Ano'ng aaralin mo tonight?" I asked him nung makita ko na ulit siya.

"Tax?" he asked.

I groaned. "Shucks, oo nga pala. Ano'ng materials mo sa Tax?" I asked him tapos ay bigla siyang huminto sa may admin office. I looked at him to ask kung ano ang gagawin niya dito.

"May itatanong lang ako," he replied tapos ay pumasok doon tapos ay iniwan ako sa labas. I stood there, staring at the closing door.

I didn't want to overthink it. Pumasok lang naman siya sa loob. Wala naman sigurong meaning 'yon. But my annoying brain didn't want to stop overthinking! I felt like something has changed ever since nung pumunta siya sa condo ko. He said na uncomfortable daw ako sa kanya. I told him no... but it felt like he didn't believe what I said. Hindi rin siguro kasi ako believable dahil halata naman na something was bothering me.

Shucks.

Ito ba iyong sinasabi niya noon na nagdedetach siya?

Did he think na attached ako sa kanya? Bakit kasi nanumbat pa ako noon?!

Fuck.

What do I do?

I just stood there, in panic mode, thinking what to do to remedy this situation. Bakit ba kasi ginawa ko pang big deal iyong ginawa niya sa club? It wasn't as if I was expecting him to introduce me to his friends sa frat kasi ano'ng sasabihin niya? Na friends kami? Like who would we be kidding? That's like a code word for 'I'm fucking her but we're not together.' He probably did me a favor by not introducing me to his friends.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano kami katagal na naka-tayo doon nung bigla na lang akong mapa-tingin sa pintuan kasi bumukas ulit 'yon. Nandon ulit si Lui. Naka-tingin siya sa akin na naka-kunot ang noo.

"What?" I asked.

"Akala ko umuwi ka na."

Kumunot ang noo ko. Hindi ba kami sabay magdidinner?