beside you | wroetoshaw

two

we finally found the guys, everyone was in there little groups but when me and harry walked up everyone noticed.
ethan came over to talk to me

"you look great tonight" ethan said

"you look great as well ethan, you look so different" i complimented him back

"in a good way i'd hope" he said, flexing his arms

"in the best way" i replied laughing

we laughed at the flirting that was currently happening knowing it's just how we have always spoke

"how come you went MIA for months?" he asked, in a more serious tone

i gulped and felt the sadness hit me once again, and the alcohol of course

"well remember that boy i was speaking to?" i took a deep breath

"jamie?" he replied, keeping his voice down

even hearing his name i felt myself tearing up

"yeah, well i don't know everything just kept kind of going wrong and he broke up with me and i felt kind of ashamed to come back out with you guys after not speaking to everyone as much" i said while trying to hold back a pool of tears

"what do you mean everything kept going wrong? and we are your family, never think we ever judge you" he asked getting worried

i didn't want to tell him the details of me and jamie, i wasn't ready to fully let anyone know about it

"i'll tell you another time, i'm still trying to understand it to be honest" i said while twirling my fingers

ethan noodles his head understandably and pulls me into a hug

"break ups are hard, i'm always here for you em" he said while rubbing my back

"yeah, how you getting on now anyways? anyone new?" i asked while pulling away

"well since em and i have split i've not been ready for a relationship, so i'm just doing me and it's honestly been the best i've ever been" he said with a smile growing on his face

i could generally see how happy he was

" that's good to hear, i remember i used to find it so confusing because you called both me and her em." i laughed

"well thank god thats over" he pulled a face

we both erupted into laugher causing our friends around us to look at us weirdly.

after me and ethan calmed down i spotted harry out the corner of my eye, he was sitting by himself just downing drink after drink.
by my facial expression and where i was looking, ethan must have clocked that i was thinking about harry

"i feel really bad for him, we've all tried to help him but he doesn't let anyone in anymore" i saw ethans mood drop talking about him

"i can't believe katie, before i left they were so happy together" i said still in shock they weren't together

"i couldn't believe it either, honestly the happiest i've seen harry was tonight when he saw you" he said, surprising me even more

"really?"

ethan nodded
i was shocked how this was the happiest they've seen him in a while, because this was the worst harry has looked since i've met him

"and even though he looks down in the dumps right now you probably have made this night better by just being here" ethan told me

"yeah before i left we were super close, in a friend way of course" i replied, smiling remembering how close we were

"well i'm going to get another drink, i'll see you in a bit" ethan said before walking away

before i could reply ethan had already walked past me, so i decided to go speak to harry again.
i sat down and took the drink taht was in his hand and downed it mysef

"hey. i was drinking that" harry angrily shouted

"you've had enough for tonight bog" i replied seriously

"pfft i was just getting started" harry mumbled, it was clear how drunk he was

i rolled my eyes at him

"you and ethan looked pretty close there" he raised his brows, insinuating i liked ethan

"ethan? you've got to be joking" i laughed

"what? he's quite fit if i say so myself" harry said

"my wroetobehz heart is shaking right now" i said clutching my chest

he spat out the drink he had somehow gotten and laughed, that was the first time i'd seen him properly laugh tonight.

"enough of that, enough of that" he waved his hands about

after about another hour of mingling and catching up with everyone i felt someone dash past me outside.
at first i was annoyed but once i figured out who i was i ran after them.
i caught up with harry who was being violently sick at the side of the club, i patted his back to let him know i was here.

"oh god harry" i said while kneeling beside him

"i-i'm fine" he said through breaths

after realising he wasn't going to be sick anymore he sat down, out of breath and looked up at me

"you can go back in now, i-i just drunk a bit much" he said out of breath

"no, it's fine i'll wait" i sat down next to him, putting my hand on his thigh rubbing it hoping to somehow make him feel better.

"why did you leave me" he asked out of the blue

"what"

"when i needed you, you weren't there" he sadly said

"i'm sorry harr-"

"are you though?" he interrupted me

"what" i asked in shock

"you were so involved in your relationship you left ours, you left all of us because of a fucking retard of a boy" he said in a bitchy tone

i stood up, as i felt like i wasn't wanted here

"are you just going to fuck off again now" he said, which took me by surprise

"harry i-it was difficult for me" i quietly replied

"it was difficult for everyone emilia" he shouted back, throwing him hands off his knees

"i'm sorry harry, i really am" i said, embarrassed i wasn't there for him

"so am i" he said in a bitchy tone,i still stood there not wanting to leave him in his drunken state. even if he was just throwing abuse at me.

"i'm sorry" he said, breaking the awkward atmosphere

"i, i'm just upset, not with you, just with everything" he said sounding ashamed

"it's fine harry, do you want me to take you home?" i said moving the conversation as quick as i could

he nodded his head and i helped him up