beside you | wroetoshaw

part thirty

it was a monday afternoon and i was sat in my living room, over the past two days since jjs release party i haven't felt like myself, i felt lonely.
i somehow kept blaming it all on jamie, even though i wasn't myself whenever i was with him but i loved the fact he would want to be with me in the public eye. not a rebound or a 2 month trial. even though he did cheat on me more than once.

the atmosphere with the group obviously wasn't the best, me and harry hadn't spoken about that night since i had woken up at his flat and we barely spoke about what happened between us that night as well. 
i feel like everyone is walking on eggshells around me slightly, as i have went MIA twice and have attempted to one time as well but that just makes me feel even worse about the whole thing.

although, one of the only people who has been real with me is calfreezy. he always kind of has been though, even though harry is one of this best friends, he has always had my side when it comes to things like this. like when harry bring katie on a night out, he tried to make me feel better about the whole thing and even talked shit about katie to me

speaking of him, he is going to be at my flat in a few minutes to film a video for his channel. 'truth or drink' and of course he was bringing callux to be the host as he always is for they videos.
and he's tried to make me film my first video for my channel but i'm still unsure if i even want to do it yet, even though he is positive he will convince me.

as i was scrolling through my socials i heard the door knock and it open, and immediately i heard boys voice laughing about something.

"EMILIA" i heard one of the cals shout

"i'm through here" i shouted back, letting them know i was in the living room already prepared for them coming

the door opened and in walked calfreezy, i greeted him and then callux but someone else followed in behind them.

"hey emilia" harry awkwardly said

"hiya bog" i said back being nice

i quickly turned around to face freezy and talk about the video

"so i've set up where we are sitting i just need you to get the camera then we are ready to go" i said proudly

"great great, i'll get that up the now. lux come help me with the lighting of it" he said getting the camera from out his bag

"you sound like a proper youtuber you know" i heard harry say from behind me

"oh shut up, i just know because i'm always with you guys if i wasn't i wouldn't have a clue what i'd be doing" i rolled my eyes and laughed

"yeah suuuure" he giggled to himself and i slightly pushed him

"right emilia, let's go" freezy said rubbing his hands together

i sat down at the table opposite him, while lux was in the middle with the vodka and sambuca bottles in his hands.
we were sat at the window so behind the camera harry was on my couch, not actually in the video.

"right so, basically lux will ask you something and if you don't want to answer it you take a shot. simple" cal quickly explained as he was about to press record

"got it" i nodded my head and quickly fixed my hair to be on camera

cal pressed record and clapped before starting.

"alright, welcome to another episode of truth or drink. TODAY we have the one and only emilia hayden" cal announced

they started clapping and harry whistled from behind the camera making me laugh
cal explained to the camera what he just explained to me except he had more energy and was basically shouting towards it