Searching- A saga ✔

26- Do you remember, my Krishna?

Empty temples and teary nights

But where are you, Krishna?

All I see is you, everywhere;

Scattered across my vision,

From the blue black sky to

The dreary earth with yellow sand.

Yet, where are you?

From the day I was born,

You chose me over and over.

What happened now?

You healed me over and over.

But what happened now?

Do you remember that day,

When you put the broken pieces,

Of my heart back together,

And hugged me close;

And healed my broken self?

Where are you now, Kanha?

Do you remember that day,

When I panicked and messed

Up my life, yet you were there,

Holding my hand and whispering...

But where are you now, kanha?

Do you remember that day,

When I shattered completely,

And you lent me a shoulder,

That whole night to cry on,

Never once complaining ,

And always soothing and caressing....

Where are you now, kanha?

Remember that day, when

We had a whole night's argument,

As to which name best suited my baby sister?

And the other day when you

Accidentally messed up my bushy hair

With that soul touching breeze of yours?

Do you remember that day,

When all those people I call

My relatives spurned and criticized me,

And as I ran away in tears,

I hurtled straight into a statue of yours?

Is that a coincidence ?

Remember the whispers that

Sang to me about you?

Saying that you are always there....

Remember that day when,

They called me weak and wicked,

And I ran crying into your arms...

You taught me love, kanha....

Bit by bit you made me who I am....

There was once a time long ago,

When everyone chose to leave,

I was always their consolation prize;

But you chose me over and over...

Kanha, you fed me love so sweet....

As amrith and as eternal ....

You held me when I was burning ,

With fever and gave me hope.

But where are you now?

Remember those days when

Bitterness and anger ate me away?

And I lashed out at you,

Blaming you for everything...

Remember when I tore that peacock

Feather and threw it on your face?

That day, Krishna, you answered 

My every query and changed my life.

You never scolded me, kanha.

You never demanded me anything.

You gave me space and never questioned.

You gave me freedom and hope.

You loved me when none did.

You taught me so many things, kanha. 

In a way only you can...

But where are you now?

Remember when you stood by me

When no one cared?

And healed my broken soul

Over and over...

With just love and nothing more?

And then there were,

The happier days...

When we'd giggle and gossip...

The whole day...

And you would make me smile

Fully in a heartfelt way...

Only you could bring that smile...

Onto my face, Krishna, you alone!

But where are you now, Krishna?

When I most desperately need you?

The emptiness of empty temples-

Eats me away slowly...

I feel broken and lost, kanha...

Without you....

Tears flow freely.

I choke on them.

I won't say I miss you.

Because to be accurate,

You are missing from me...

This night seems to be very long...

But when morning dawns,

I know you'll be back...

Or else I'll get up and start searching...

And when I do find you,

I am going to pull your ear,

Till it turns red....

Because you are my everything

My everything, kanha, EVERYTHING ....

My universe ...

And no one can take that away.

From me...

Didn't you teach me that ,

One night long ago?