June 20 2015

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Today is Saturday. I survived finals, and the week. Mom found out about my self harming on Thursday. I locked myself in the bathroom. Lynn is the only reason it didn't turn out to be a disaster. She had found out before so she was able to explain to my mom perfectly. But she left today. I'm already really sad about it. I've been missing Andy this whole week. Leaving him on Wednesday was so hard. I've been so worried about him. I haven't talked to him since then. I've been dreaming about him every single night. I miss him. I'm really worried about him. On Wednesday, the way he was talking was scaring me. I just wish that boy could know how beautiful he is to me. I wish he could know how beautiful I think his soul is. He has such an amazing spirit- though a little broken, he is so beautiful. Like a glow stick- you have to break before you can shine. He isn't as bright as he can be right now, but he is still so beautiful. I'm worried for him. I hope he is happy. I've been trying so hard to have a dream where I can actually see him, but I never can. But I always remember vaguely in the morning. They're always about him. I really hope I can reach out to him, I miss him so much it's ridiculous. I need to see him somehow. I'm losing my mind.

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