I wanna be yours... -ALEX TURNER- <3

13. dreams

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(Timeskip: end of suck it and see tour)

It's been a while now.

Bella and I haven't talked in weeks.

The boys kept my mind of her on the last weeks on tour, but now that we're back... I can't think about anything but her.

I missed her so much.

I missed the ways she looked at me, I missed the "welcome back home" hug at the airport, I missed her beautiful smile, her jokes, her...

Everything.

But I gave her space.

It was the only thing she asked me to do.

So I decided to not fuck things up and give her what she needed.

Goddamn space

...

(Bella's pov)

I was doing good.

My bruises were healed a long time ago, and I decided to move on and have fun again.

Sarah stayed with me for a while after Alex' apologies. It was nice to have her around to keep my mind off the pain.

She always did keep me updated on things to make sure I wouldn't get even more hurt after I started healing again.

"Bella I have got some news." Sarah said.
"Go tell me S." I smiled.
"Olivia and Brian moved in together in Los Angeles." Sarah sighs.
"I am happy for them." I smile. "sure she broke everything but at least Brian and her found each other." I smile angrily. "I shouldn't have give Brian another chance. He tried to fuck Olivia while knowing about the fact she had a boyfriend, but that's just him now I guess." I sighed.

It was better this way.

Not seeing Alex maybe was the best choice, it would give me time to think about what I really wanted in life.

And one day, it came to me.

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"Alex." I sat up as I awoke from another weird dream.

Lately I've been having dreams about him.

The dreams were fucking incredible.

We danced, or played music together. I even once dreamed about us getting married.

I couldn't help but wonder if Alex was the answer.

I didn't want to see Alex, it would bring back bad memories. But I really wanted things to be back to normal.

It has been weeks since we talked.

He gave me so much space, me knowing that it hurts him.

But it was time.

"I am going to call him"

...

(Alex' pov)

I sat on my leather sofa and was writing some lyrics, and playing soms guitar riffs.

Everything I wrote nowadays, was about Bella.

I couldn't think of anything else but her.

"Arabella's got some interstellar-gator skin boots
And a Helter Skelter 'round her little finger and I ride it endlessly
She's got a Barbarella silver swimsuit
And when she needs to shelter from reality
She takes a dip in my daydreams"

"That's magic in a cheetah print coat
Just a slip underneath it I hope
Asking if I can have one of those
Organic cigarettes that she smokes
Wraps her lips round the Mexican coke
Makes you wish that you were the bottle
Takes a sip of your soul and it sounds like"

Arabella.

Her full name.

She hated it back in the days, but I always convinced her that it was the coolest name ever

I didn't want to use it in my songs, cause it would be too obvious I loved her more as a friend.

But now,

I am not scared about that anymore.

Because I am certain.

I love her, and I want to be with her.

I even mentioned the cheetah coat and her gator skin boots. I wanted to let her know this song was for her.

For the love of my life.

-bleep bleep-

I grabbed my phone and saw that Bella was trying to call me.

I rubbed my eyes to make sure my eyes weren't fooling me.

It really was her.

My heart was making the biggest jump, and I couldn't believe it. She wanted to call me.

"Bella? Is that you?" I said happily.

"Hi Al...I just needed to call you. I need a favor." She spoke softly.

"Ofcourse, ask me anything." I tried saying as calm as possible.

"Can I borrow your vacuum cleaner? Mine broke down." She asked.

"Yes ofcourse Bella." I smiled. "Why do you need mine tho? Matt lives only a block away from y-..

"Alex..." She sighed. "I need yours."

Did she just really wanted to see me?

"I'll come over to bring it Bella, don't worry."

"No, I'll come to pick it up. I'll be at yours in about 10 minutes." She said

"Okay that's fine with me." I smiled.

She hang up before I could say goodbye.

But this was progress.

...

End of chapter 13.