" Shehnaaz where the hell is your mind, every time you are doing the same mistake, is this the way you are going to sustain" Sanket yelled at her.
" Sir I am trying give me some time, I will correct it"
" you need confidence, tum aise customers ko tackle karogi itni fumbleness ke saath, agr tum kisi ko khuch smjha nh skti toh tumhari knowledge kis kaam ki hai bolo, customer tumhare muh ki taraf dekhta rhega"
" I am sorry sir, I am trying my best, its just..."
" next one" for the next one hour other trainees give their presentation explaining the different types of loans the institute offered its customers.
"Shehnaaz kha kho gyi lets go, it's okay hota hai kabhi kabhi, you will get there" Nadia said trying to console her.
" tumhe bolne ke liye kisne kha, mere dosto ke samne zyada hass rhi thi, mana kia tha na ek bhi shabd bolne se," he asked cupping her face tightly.
" ai...se...baat..nh..hai..me..." before she could say further, a hand landed on her cheek with the force.
" aainda se kisi ke samne ye muh khola toh soch lo ky hasar hoga"
" I am coming back in some time" she said hastily
" where are you going??" she inquired yelling her way.
" I need some fresh air"
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Standing on the terrace, she opened her arms trying to breathe, trying to calm her heart, she must be changed, but her demons follows her everywhere, every time she tried to stand, tried to take a step further, her past pushed her back.
" Try to believe in yourself, don't let any one affect you," She heard a deep voice, the voice she very well knows, she turned to go.
" ek minute bhi nh rukogi" he voiced out without thinking.
" rukne jaise mera apk saath koi rishta nh hai"
" do you believe in all the rumours you heard about me??" he asked.
" Mere manne na manne se ky frq pdta hai, apk apni sachai pata hai" he stands in front of her while she looked down not able to see in his eyes.
" Frq padta hai,"
" nh padna chiye, mein apk liye koi nh hu, aur gairo se kabhi khud ka dil nh jalana chiye"
" agr gair hu toh kyu raat ke andhere mein tumhari aankhein mujhe kyu dhoondti hai, agr gair hu toh kyu nazre nh mila paa rhi ho" he questioned.
" jaane de na" she asked in a breaking voice.
" jaane toh dia tha, syd nh jane dena chiye tha," he uttered somewhere guilty.
" ab in sb baaton ka koi fayda nh hai, aap mujhse dur rhe, logo ne saath dekh lia toh bhut baatein banayenge" he backed out smiling.
" you are the same, I think you changed, but you are the same shehnaaz, the same quiet, confused, and innocent, the wall you built around yourself is for others not for..."
"I am changed, I am..." she replied with bitterness in her eyes.
" when you talk to the customers, be calm, spontaneous and relaxed, and make them understand with lots of patience, forget someone else is there, forget about the outcome, just do your best, just try to make them understand in most easy and simple language, not with bookish terms"
" don't think you have to get it anyhow, don't put a lot of hard work which is not required, be who you are, you face many things in life, you fall many times but you are standing again and again that's matter the most, apne ap ko apni nazro se dekh na ki kisi aur ki" he stated going away from her.
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" Amal beta khuch toh bolo tum aakhir kar chahti ky ho, na tum case kr rhi ho, na tum maafi mangna chahti ho" her father asked having enough of her silence.
" abbu aap kesi baatein kar rhe hai mein un logo ke yahan apni Behn ko bilkul nh bhejunga" her brother saad stated in anger.
" toh phucho apni Behn se kyu chup hai, police mein FIR karane se pehle nh socha tha ki sidhha ghrwalo ko btau, agr jhooth hai toh saaf sunlo Meri baat amal mujhe bura koi nh hoga"
" jhooth nh bol rhi hu mein apko apni beti par vishwas nh hai balki kisi gair par hai" she shouted.
" gair nh sohar hai tumhara, usse baat ki hai maine, aur uski aankhon mein maine waisa khuch bhi nh dekha jisse mein keh sku ki woh insan glt hai"
" apko toh bs apne bacho mein glti lagti hai, mera dum ghutta tha wahan, na kahin aana jana, din bhar kam kam, kabhi kisi ka aana kabhi kisi ka, insan do pal bhi sukoon ki saans nh le skta, kitni dafa kha tha maine unko ki hum alg shift ho jate hai lekin mujhe hi humesa chup kara dete the, mohabbat toh hum dono ke beech hai hi nh, bs ek rishta hai jo nibhaye jaa rhe the majboori ka"
" sidharth mein ky keh rhi thi ki hum kahin bhar ghumne chle koi foreign country maldives aajkl bhut log jaa rhe hai wahan" she asked her in sweet voice.
" Amal abhi Mishti ki engagement mein usko uski pasand ki jewellery gift krne mein paise kharch ho gye, abhi utni savings nh hai khuch mahine baad chl padenge" he replied calmly.
" aur puri family ke saath chlenge, family holidays bhi bhut din ho gye nh ki hai humne"
" sidharth apko smjh nh aata ya samajna nh chahte, mein hum dono ki baat kr rhi hu sirf, sirf hum dono, aur koi nh, or mishti ko toh aap khuch chota sa bhi gift kr skte the, ye nh apk biwi hai ushe hi khuch laa de"
" Amal Behn hai woh meri uske liye mein karunga, don't you dare to say anything like this again"
" aur tumhari konsi zarroratein puri nh ki maine, aur agr itni hi khwaishen thi toh koi aur ghar dhoondna chiye tha tumhare abbu ko, itna mein nh kar skta hu"
" Mein alg rehna chahti hu"
" lights off krdo, I have to sleep, office hai mera kal"
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" Mera dil aap par pura bharosa karta hai ki aapne aisa khuch nh kia hoga par mera dimag vishwas nh krna chahta hai," she conveyed when they stood beside each other having their tea outside the office.
" tum apne parents ke saath kyu nh rehti" he questioned.
" har kisi ke parents apk parents jaise supportive nh hote hai na, unhe mujhpr bharosa nh hai, woh mujhe roj marne ke liye keh rhe the" her eyes filled with tears remembering their cruel words towards their daughter character.
" aap karte hai bharosa mujhpe??" she asked the same question after a few seconds of silence, her finger circling the tip of the glass.
"Haa"
" mere drd se frq padta hai??" she added.
"Apno ke dard se toh humesa hi farq padta hai" he replied.
" ye glt hai par mein rok nh paa rhi hu apne aap ko, itne waqt baad koi dard baatne wala mila hai"
" aap glt smjhenge mujhe oro ki tarah" she asked fumbling.
" tum mere liye kabhi glt hi nh thi"
" toh kar lena tha na nikkah, har roz jeete jee nh marna padta," she added.
" shehnaaz!!!" he gasped taking her name.
" maafi milegi kabhi??" he asked after a while.
" apk toh koi glti hi na, kayi rishte yuhi reh jaate hai jinka koi wajood nh hota, koi naam nh hota, thora zaldi aana tha mere qubool hai kehne se pehle"
"khamoshi ka hasil bhi ek lambhi se khamoshi thi,
un ki baat suni bhi hum ne, apni baat sun bhi."
-Gulzar
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MERE MEHRAM (completed)
FanfictionThe love story of two different people falling in love with each other in the most unexpected circumstances, for knowing more about them, join me in the journey of Sidharth Siddiqui and shehnaaz........
