everlasting 一 pjm, kth

ruby.

it's not worth trying anymore.
i give up. i think i've got it. it used to baffle me, but everything is crystallized now; i get it. the picture is clear. we were never meant to last. we were honest, but fleeting. we were young and we were dumb and we were sensitive and we were vulnerable. it was foolish of me to think that you and i could make something last. even though we're not together anymore, there's one thing i know for sure; you were my first love, and you will always be my last.

i hope i'm still in your heart, somewhere. i don't care if it's rooted deep down or if it lies at the surface; i want it to be there. you left me, and i'll never get over that. but if i can't have you anymore, i hope i still haunt your every wake, as you do the same to me.

what we had is done, our fire has finally gone out. it's smoke has vanished and all that is left is ghostly remains. i explore it now in the only place left for it; my memory. and i guess that's how it always will be.