✅ Tutor// C.B ✅

7

"So how did you get a 150 on the science final?" Daniel asks
"Oh the teacher said that because I didn't learn half of the material and I still got the answers right they gave me 50 extra points"
"That's cool" Daniel says
"Not really. Anyways let's start"

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I tutor them for about an hour and they are slowly starting to understand the concepts of what we're doing

"So did any of you study yesterday" I ask
"No" jack says
"No I had better things to do" Zach says
"I slept" Corbyn says
"I didn't want to" Daniel says

I sigh and close all the books putting them away

"This isn't going to work if you guys don't try and study. I only asked for at least 5 minutes"

"Well sorry we actually have lives and don't have time to sit in our rooms and just study" Corbyn says
"You could simply have just said you didn't have time you didn't have to be so rude and attack what I do to get your point across"
"I'm just trying to explain that not everyone finds studying enjoyable"
"Okay and I do and there shouldn't be an issue with that I don't understand why everyone gets so angry when they see someone likes it"
"I didn't get angry so I have no idea what you mean by everyone"
"Whatever I just know a lot of people who hate people who study and it's annoying"
"maybe people don't like people who study because they think that the ones who do think they're better than everyone else" Jack says
"That's not why I like studying" I say
"Why do you like studying so much anyways" Daniel asks
"Well it's relaxing to me. It also makes life less stressful"
"Like you have anything in your life to stress about" Zach asks
"I actually have a lot to stress about that you and no one knows about"
"Oh really? What do you stress about" he asks
"getting attacked, infections, people hating me, cuts finally closing but getting reopened, people escaping prison, breaking my arms or legs, having a concussion, being alone, being weak, no one loving me, getting abused, depression, starving, having no friends, never making it anywhere in life, being a disappointment, getting killed, killing myself, having no family, people judging me, any other reasons you need" I list with my head down
"Oh I didn't know all of that I'm sorry" he says
"I think you guys should go home. I don't want to do this anymore today"
"Yeah we probably should" Daniel says
"Well Bye. I'll see you guys tomorrow I guess"
"can we have your number so if we need help we can ask"
"I guess" I say shrugging

I get a sticky note and write my number on it

"Share it" I say giving it to them

They take it and eventually leave my room

After they leave I get all my books and put them under my bed. Once I do this is go under the covers of my bed and put them over my head so I can cry and no one will be able to see me

I cry silently for a little while when I hear my door open and feel someone sit on my bed

"Go away please" I say
"Whats wrong" the other person who I quickly realize is Tyler says
"I'm not in the mood to talk please just go away"
"I'm not leaving until I know you're okay"
"Then you will never leave because I will never be okay."
"Please talk to me"
"I don't want to talk like I've already said now please go"
"I will not go away until you come out and talk to me"
"What do you want me to say. I'm not okay and I never have been and I never will be. I have no friends, no one likes me, I'm a loser, I'm a disappointment, I don't have any parents that love me, people hurt me everyday but I'm too weak to fight back, I'm done with life but I don't want to die, I'm hungry but I don't want to eat, the people I tutor think I'm just a loner with no life and I can't talk to anyone about it because they'll tell someone" I say pulling the covers off my face
"I am so sorry but I know for a fact people like you, you're not a loser because you like studying, you are not a disappointment you are the opposite actually. You make me so proud that even after everything you've been through you still manage to keep up with your grades" he says hugging me
"They're the only things that make me happy"
"Do I make you happy?" He asks
"Sometimes"
"I know how to make you happy"
"How" I ask
"You said you don't have anyone to talk to about things but I have a really good friend that would love to talk to you about everything you're feeling and would probably make you feel better. I can ask him if he wouldn't mind being like a therapist for you and you can say everything you want to him and he won't tell me or anyone what you said"
"That would be nice. But is he nice?"
"Yes he is very nice. I will talk to him tonight and ask if he would do it"
"Okay that would be helpful I guess."
"Good now is there anything else you want to talk to me about preferably happy"
"Well one good thing happened today"
"And What was that"
"Well I got a 150 on a science final and now I don't have to take the class anymore"
"See you make me so proud. How many people can say that they got a 150 on a test that only goes up to 100"
"I guess it's cool"
"It's super cool. You are so smart. I wish I was smart like you when i was in school "
"You could've been if you studied"
"I bet i could've" he says smiling
"Now do you feel better" he asks
"A little thank you."
"No problem now am I going to see you any time later"
"No I think i might go to sleep now"
"Okay well goodnight and I'll make sure no one comes in your room" he says getting up
"Wait before you leave"
"Yes"
"Can I have another hug please"
"Sure." He says hugging me
"Thank you good night now"
"Good night I'm going to call my friend later tonight Okay"
"Okay"

He finally leaves and I finally get to sleep all my pain away