"girls need love too"
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mel-
i walked out the classroom getting looks from people mostly girls who were probably mad that d even touched me let alone talked to me.
i ignored them all and made my way to my next class not wanting to be bothered.
ping
i looked down at my phone
the a$$ d- i need to talk to you after school so meet me at ur house
me- dumb ass i live at my house so you would have to meet me
the a$$ d- wtf ever just know we talkin
me- like hell we are. i said what i said. you said what you said . we said what we said. and that's it. anit shit else to say 🤷🏽♀️.
the a$$ d- keep up talking to me like that i teach yo little ass a lesson
me- good bye dummy
i closed the message app and walked to my car. truth be told i could not come to any of my classes and still pass. i was really ready to be done with everything.
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pulling up to my house i just sat out front. in less that two days will be the anniversary of their death. I can't help but think about different ways that day could have played out.
I tell people "it happened for a reason and i could not have stopped it" but truth be told i blamed my self for the whole thing. every bit.
I missed them so much. and i could even go back and make it better.
tears fell from my face as i fell back in my chair letting it all come out.
i always held in my emotions. i always had to be strong. i had to grow up fast as hell with no time to breathe.
my life ways a constant cycle of looking over my shoulder and not trusting anyone. not letting anyone to close bc they could very be taken away from me too.
i didn't want to go in the house. so i just went to go get ice cream.
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walking in to the store i went to the back where i new the ice cream was.
i grabbed a mix ice cream and went to get whipped cream. i walked past the candy apples and picked up a few along with some chips. i walked to the self checkout and rung my stuff up and left.
pulling back up at my house i looked at the time 1:40
i had atleast 2 hours to just mop around and watch tv and that is what i was gonna do.
i didn't want to even pretend to be happy right now. i just wanted to be.
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i had major writers block with this chapter lmao next one will be better (i hope)
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Romanceone horrible night in melody's life changed everything. she lost her father, her mother and her older sister. all she had left was her two brothers. life got ruff and she chose to go quite and shut everyone out. but what happens when a boy comes al...
