Maybe I miss you

See you soon

Everything seemed to be perfect, Louis and Harry hung out whenever they could, went on dates, had sleepovers and didn't seem to be bothered what the media had to say. One day Harry received a voice message from Louis.

Louis: "Hey Haz, can we talk? I have something on my mind and I just need to tell you."

A cold shiver ran down Harry's spine when he heard that. Louis sounded sad and worried and not like himself. What was he about to tell him? Did he cheat on him? Is he hurt? Did Harry do something wrong? The thoughts in Harry's head ran wild and he could not think straight. After contemplating how to respond he decided to send a voice message back.

Harry: "Sure, is everything alright? Do you wanna come over?"

Harry was worried sick and hoped to get a satisfying answer that would ease his mind, but instead, he got a short text saying "I'll be there in a minute.". Although Louis arrived shortly after it felt like an eternity. All Harry could do was to worry about what Louis had to tell him.

When he finally arrived Harry opened the door and kissed Louis as usual, but something was off. The kiss was cold and felt more like a duty than a pleasure.

Harry: "Is everything alright?"

Louis didn't answer the question, instead, he headed to the couch and sat down. Harry followed him and sat down next to him, but he kept his distance. Louis was just about to say something when Harry interrupted him.

Harry: "Are you breaking up with me?"

He felt the tears in his eyes as he spoke the words he feared so much. The only thing he feared more than this question was Louis answer and by the look on his face, Harry would not like his answer.

Louis: "Listen Harry ..."

Harry: "Lou, answer my question!"

Harry tried to keep his voice steady but he couldn't stop the shaking from coming through.

Louis: "I just think ..."

Harry got angry and frustrated and raised his voice a little.

Harry: "Yes or no?"

Louis seemed scared and sad and he let out a loud breath before attempting to answer the question.

Louis: "It's not that easy b..."

Harry: "Lou, just answer my question! Are you breaking up with me? Yes or no?"

Silence took over the room and Harry could feel his heartbeat fasten. He couldn't live without Louis. He was his person. He was everything he ever wanted and he thought that the feelings were mutual, but it seemed like he was wrong. Finally, Louis broke his silence.

Louis: "I could never break up with you Haz. I love you and ... and I mean that. I really love you but I need some time for myself. We have spent so much time together that I'm feeling like I am losing myself you know?"

Harry was relieved but also heartbroken. He nodded although he had no idea what Louis was talking about. He felt like he was only his true self when he was around Louis. Not once did he feel like he was losing himself. 

Harry: "Did I ..."

A tear fell down Harry's face.

Harry: "Did I push you too much?"

Louis expiration softened.

Louis: "No Hazza, it's not your fault. It's just that everything happened so fast and I didn't even have time to think about it. And it was perfect at the moment but I don't know how I feel about everything right now."

Harry started to cry. His hands were shaking and he feared the answer to the question he was about to ask before even asking it.

Harry: "Will you come back to me?"

Louis looked at him in silence and Harry knew that Louis had no idea himself. Just the possibility of Louis leaving him forever made Harry break down. He grabbed a pillow and borrowed his face in it while crying.

Louis: "I will come back, I just don't know when."

Harry got himself together and looked at Louis.

Harry: "Lou?"

Louis: "Haz?"

Harry took a deep breath.

Harry: "Lou, I love you more than anything or anyone. ... And I want you to be happy."

Harry took another deep breath and wiped a tear off his face before he could continue.

Harry: "I want you to be happy and if you are happier without me ... then that's what it's supposed to be."

Harry broke down again. He only managed to say a few words before the sadness took over his body.

Harry: "Take your time. Remember that I will wait for you, forever. But please leave now."

Louis stood up and walked to the door. Before he opened the door to leave he turned around.

Louis: "I'm sorry. I love you. See you soon."

And he left.

a/n: First of all, I'm sorry. Second of all the next few chapters will be POVs for obvious reasons. I hope you still enjoy the story. :)