Odds And Mirrors (Unedited)

Phakamile

I designed and built this library myself, specifically for her because I knew how much she'd love it
It was something I had been wanting to do for her since that day we had a disagreement in the office about how women wanted a fairytale and a novel type of romance but didn't know how to be a fairytale for men

It was unrealistic of her to feel the way she felt and we told Lesedi that she needed to lower her standards and stop having high expectations of men
I saw how we upset her that day and I felt bad for a long time because I had somewhat told her she wasn't worth all that she wanted which isn't true
The way her face fell, haunted me for a while because she wasn't asking for too much, she just wanted to be loved her way
I had known her for a month then but I had yet to see that expression on her face and my brothers and I were to blame
I remember her saying

"well you don't know what love is then because if you love somebody even if it seems ridiculous, you will do what it takes to make them happy"

We had this conversation around 11 a.m. and she proceeded to work in silence and only speaking to us when she had to
She just played her music
After lunch she worked at a different block with the marketing department
I knew we had hurt her feelings
That's why I built the library and studio myself, I wanted to make sure that she felt loved, catered for and listened to

Even if I feel like she wants a fairytale and is always daydreaming
If it makes her happy, then I'm willing and I needed her to know this from the very start of our relationship
Even this house, I didn't buy it solely because she liked it
I bought it after I saw her enquiry on it, her credit score even went down, sure we paid her well but she still wouldn't have been able to afford or maintain it solely on her salary.
I just couldn't put it past her to go back to driving people around to make more money
That's the reason I begrudgingly bought it but it turned out to be the best decision
The serenity out here is priceless

The library is next to my office and it seems like the perfect set up, she reads her books where I can have easy access.
Now how ironic is it that my ex is bleeding all over the very office overlooking her library

I don't understand how time has flown this quickly, it's been eight months since that fateful night
Jay's wife Lerato came home by escaping 6 months ago
I thought that was my breakthrough but she returned in a state because they had tortured and almost driven her crazy
To the point where Lerato killed her own child, the recording of her doing it was sent to us two days before the body was delivered on Jay's door in a shoebox.
A motherfuking shoebox!!
The dark work is an immoral field to operate in but even for us, this is enough now.
I have no one to be mad at now, I found Linda a few days ago but haven't told Danso
Turns out that she's Carlos's eldest daughter, the same Carlos I had killed over a year old. She was also linked to the Nikolaev brothers and I know she was only with Danso in an attempt to take us out.
I just haven't decided what to do about it, she's in "hiding" so I just want confirmation that she gave birth and if indeed the child is Danso's.
If it's not the case, I'll take her out myself and Danso will just have to understand, it's just a different story all together if the child is ours and alive

Our dearest friend Jay lost his unborn child. His 8 year old child also had to witness his mother being tortured into madness just as Jay was through the footage they kept sending but we couldn't trace
I could not ask any more of Jay and his family because Lerato's memory was dipping in and out
She kept running away every time we questioned her about her whereabouts during the days she was kidnapped

A week ago her memory was completely gone and she was no longer with Jay even though he's still lurking in the background and keeping her safe
We all now know that the Nikolaev family who had Lerato are not the same people who have Lesedi
I feel that Lesedi's attack was random because her travels that night were unplanned.
The Nikolaev brothers are dead now along with every acquaint they've ever had.
This was all over the 110mil operation they had in South Africa
When we shut down Nathi's businesses, we had no idea that he was just a front for their businesses
We have every reason to believe they too had no idea who they were dealing with