Love doesn't disappear

Chapter Two

I arrived at the circuit, better said in the Marussia F1 Team garage, as time goes by the rain is getting worse and worse, the cold is getting worse.

Now I'm with Jules in the driver's room and I see how he's getting ready, all the way from the hotel to the circuit I had the same thought, I tried to ignore it but I couldn't, in my head there was only Jules, my husband who always risks his life every Sunday for his dream, to become World Champion.

"Are you still thinking about what you told me?" Jules asks me, looking at me

"It's normal that I'm still thinking there, Jules, my love I'm worried about you and it's not just me, it's your family and my family, everyone is worried" I told him with tears in my eyes

When I raised my head to look into his eyes, then he also saw my eyes with tears and a little red and at that moment he knelt in front of me and took my face in his hands and kissed me, the kiss did not last too long, when he broke the kiss he looked into my eyes and tried to wipe my tears but he couldn't because they kept flowing

"Mon amour, please don't cry anymore, I can't stay and see you like this, it breaks my heart, please" he says to me and I hear his voice drop in octaves and I see that he was sad and all because of me and my bad instinct

"Jules, mon amour, love, please forgive me, I was wrong to listen to my instinct and I should have trusted you and what you told me, but my emotions, the fear that I won't have you by my side, I'm afraid that I won't have you I lose because of something stupid that the FIA does."

"I know you are afraid and you have every right to be afraid, but I will always be with you, you will not lose me" he told me

After he told me these things, there was a knock on the door and I knew what it meant and the person on the other side of the door said those words that I have been hearing for 10 years.

"Jules, there are 15 minutes left until the race, you have to come for a last little meeting with the team, then you have to get in the car"

"I will come right away, I still have something to discuss with my beautiful, loving and caring wife" he says while looking at me

I will never get used to him saying these things, even after 5 years of marriage, he always comes up with something new and that's why I fall in love with him even more every day.

"Come and let me kiss you one more time and hold you in my arms, then the whole team will come to get me in the car" he says and I start to laugh knowing that this is what happened last time

"ok ok"

He comes towards me and takes me in his arms and kisses me, I prolong the kiss and put my hands around his neck to bring him closer to me.

"Good luck and please come back to me"

"Thank you and I'll get back to you as usual, I promise"

"I love you Jules Lucien André Bianchi"

"I love you too Amalia Jane Bianchi"

And with that he took the helmet from the table in the driver's room, kissed me once more on the forehead and I left with him to the car and to his team. I leave him to go to the mini-meeting before the race and I go to the panel where all the monitors are and it shows the entire circuit from any angle, there I was going to sit with his team and the team leader.

After the 15 minutes ended, everyone went to their seats, I saw Jules when he put on his helmet and entered the car. The emotions were at the limit, and with that the drivers went out on the circuit, I was watching the fear of what was happening and I was even more afraid for Jules' life.

The more time passed, the more it rained and the harder it was to see what was happening on the circuit.

Jules was doing very well, he was on the 42nd lap and entering the 43rd lap of the race and at that moment Jules lost control of his car and turned right and went under a tractor head and with that the red flag was announced.

His whole team was in shock, but I was devastated, I had a pair of headphones that I could hear his car radio, I asked someone how I can communicate with him and he showed me how to start and I repeated how he showed me

"Jules, love, can you hear me?" my heart seems to be in my throat and I waited to see if he would say something and I started to worry more and more

"Mon amour, please, if you hear me press anything, please. Jules, I'm begging you, say something. Jules?" and I realized that he would not answer

You wanted to scream, scream, cry, your lungs felt on fire and the burning smoke took your voice. Your world began to spin as the paramedics entered the circuit, speeding towards his lifeless body hanging from the car. You sank to the ground, arms wrapped around your stomach, willing the pain to stop. You wanted your heart to stop beating so fast that the blood rushing through your venison and your ears couldn't handle it.

We watched as a helicopter took him to the hospital, hopefully fast enough to save him