Shawn Mendes Imagines

30. Late Night Studio

Shawn's perspective

"No, it doesn't sound good. I messed up with the chords." I grumble as I watch my fingers on the strings of my favorite guitar.

"Well, just try again and focus." Geoff tells me, studying my face, but he notices quickly that I'm not convinced.

"Shouldn't I just change it ? Like, what if we try this ?" My eyebrows are furrowed, and my tongue is sticking out at the corner of my mouth as I try some new chords. I realize slowly that it doesn't work either, and all I can do is letting my guitar rest on my thighs as I lean back in my chair, my hand finding my curls.

"That sucks." I state as I close my eyes and try not to get mad at me for doing shit.

Geoff, who is sitting in front of me, raises an eyebrow at me and sighs.

"Why are you tough on yourself like that ? It didn't suck. It was actually really good."

I open an eye to look at him briefly before I sit up correctly in my seat again. I grab the neck of my guitar, and the fingers of my right hand find the nylon strings by themselves.

"Are you kidding me ? I can't put that in the album..." I declare as I graze some random strings with my fingertips.

Geoff sighs again. He doesn't like it when he sees I'm getting nervous and angry because of music. It's not why it's made for. Music should be relaxing and fun, but when you're in this industry and that everybody is expecting a perfect album from you, that can become difficult.

"You should just take a break and do that later. You're exhausted, you've been trying to find the perfect melody for hours. It's late, Shawn. Just go and get some rest." He advises me, but I can't, I have to finish this tonight.

"No, no, no. I know I can finish this song. I just need more time. If you're tired, you can go with the guys, I wouldn't mind. They are outside on the patio, I think." I answer back, still looking at my fingers.

"Shawn, I'm not joking. Just stop and rest. Or at least, put you guitar down, breathe, and wait until you're calm again."

I stay silent for a second and finally give in. I put my guitar against the mixing deck and run a hand through my hair as I look behind Geoff, where the patio door is. The view is beath-taking at night. Jamaica is such a beautiful place to make an album, so inspiring and peaceful, far away from the stress of New York, Toronto or L.A.

I take a deep breath and stare at the scenery. Stars in the dark sky, the waves crashing on the shore and the slight wind making the trees move. All the bad feelings I had a few moments ago are now slowly fading. I don't know why I'm stressing so much for SM3, nobody is rushing me after all, just myself.

"Are you ok ?" Geoff's voice brings me back from my thoughts, and I just nod in response, letting the silence take place again. He's right, I just need to relax. The only noises that can be heard are our friends' laughs every now and then and the tick of my watch.

Geoff is such a good friend. Always there for me when I need it, but he also understands when I need to be alone. That's not always easy to be a 19-year-old artist. A lot of pressure, people with bad intentions, a lot of time spent on the road, and so much more. But he is there to help me, to face the bad side of my career.

My eyes only leave the beautiful landscape when I hear someone shifting on the couch, on the other side of the small room. They stop on another person who helps me a lot in my life, Y/N.

She fell asleep around midnight, she wanted to watch me and my team work on this song, but I guess she was too tired to stay awake that long. She's really cute when she sleeps, and that makes me smile. I could watch her for hours, I'm still not used to it. I hope she knows I truely love her, even if I haven't had the chance to tell her directly. Maybe I'll write a song about her oneday, she's an inspiration for me.

"You love her, right ?" My eyes don't leave Y/N's body as Geoff talks to me.

I take my time to answer, but I finally say something after some long seconds.

"It has only been a few months with her by my side, but I'm already so addicted." I breathe out, my thoughts about her consuming me.

"She's good for you, Shawn. No doubt about that."

I look at him, and I notice he's also staring at Y/N. Does he really think that ?

"You think ?" I ask, my heart starting to beat faster at the thought of my friends finding her right for me. They've never told me anything about what they thought about her. Of course, they find her friendly and nice, but they've never given their opinions on our relationship.

"Yeah, I'm sure." He answers and nods at the same time. We're both watching her as he goes on. "She stays quiet when you work, she just observes you and respects your work. She doesn't need the attention on her and even tries to hide as much as possible every time you go out together. She follows you to Jamaica because she knows you'll need her at some point. And she deals with your uncommon lifestyle, not wanting anything in return but your love. Her feelings are pure, Shawn."

My eyes are glossy now. It makes me feel so happy to have my friend's approval. I knew she was right for me, but now that I heard it from someone else, I feel even better.

I watch my girlfriend sleep a bit longer until Scott walks in the room and speaks a bit too loud.

"Hey, guys ! You should come outside and see what Teddy i-"

"Shhhh !" Geoff and I hush him up at the exact same time, hoping that Y/N won't wake up.

Too late...

Her eyes open slowly, adapting easily to the dim light of the room. She rubs them with her fists and yawns.

"Gosh, Scott... You woke my baby up." I say, laughing a bit as I look at Y/N's confused state.

"Shit. Sorry, man. I didn't know she was asleep."

"It's ok." My girl answers with her sleepy voice and sits up.

I smile at the sight of her and glance back at Scott who is rubbing the back of his neck in embarrassment.

"I don't want the boss to be mad at me because I disturbed her girl's sleep." He says jokingly, looking in my direction.

Geoff and I chuckle at his words, and I shake my head in response. Then, I stand up from my seat and walk to the couch. I eventually sit next to Y/N and peck her hot cheek as my large hand rubs her back.

"What time is it ?" She asks shyly, as if she was embarrassed that everyone in the room is looking at her.

"3.15 AM." I say and lift her chin up with my forefinger, only to kiss her lips quickly.

The two boys watch us and smile.

"What a cute lil' couple here." Scott says with a high piched voice, clearly making fun of us.

We all let out a laugh. I then turn to face Y/N again.

"Wanna go to sleep, baby ?"

She nods.

"Do you come with me ? Or do you need more time for your song ? If you do, I can wait."

My heart swells, she is so devoted and patient with me.

"No, baby. Music can wait, not you."

And with that, I lift her up bridal style and carry her to our room. I yell a "Goodnight guys, see you tomorrow !" before shutting the door of our room.

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Hey !

I went to Khalid's concert in Brussels yesterday and let me say he's such a talented guy ! It was awesome, seriously. So many good vibes. 10/10 would recommend.

Also, SM3 IS COMING GUYS ! Can't wait, I'm so excited !