Shi Qingxuan looked at Xie Lian's back slowly disappearing. He really couldn't understand why none of the mythical treasures wouldn't be suitable as a gift. He could guess more or less that it was probably Crimson Rain Sought Flowers's birthday. And so Xie Lian was running everywhere in search of good gifts.
Shi QingXuan chuckled for a while then stopped suddenly. Not because people would call him crazy, but he was just in no mood to laugh anymore. He didn't care if people call him crazy or not anylonger. He was crazy anyway. Who in the world would want to live in this state if one wasn't crazy! Broken arms, broken legs, ugly hairs, dirty clothes. Once he was as clean as jade and now in this state.
Honestly, he missed his old life. No, not the riches but the people. Although there wasn't much real friends of him, all talked to him because of his brother. There were still a few who generally cared for him; such as Pei Ming. Yes, Shi QingXuan could actually understand now that Pei Ming actually saw him as his own younger brother. And it was just he didn't know how to show his affection. He only knows about women. So, it was hard to see. But maybe Shi QingXuan was a bit mature now, just a bit mature to understand the affection. Or it's maybe he just misses his old life.
Also his highness, although they met for such a short time, but they actually became good buddies. It's not because of Shi QingXuan, rather Xie Lian was genuinely a good person to take him as a good friend. To remember him till now. He was of no use now. Not that he could throw away thousand merits. But Xie Lian still treated him as good friend. It actually filled Shi QingXuan with warmth.
But what Shi QingXuan missed more than anything was his brother and his ...best friend? Swear enemy?
It's funny. How can he miss both of them at the same time?
In front of his eyes, his former best friend killed his brother. His blood was splashed right onto Shi QingXuan's face. He could still taste the disgusting salty bitter taste of blood.
But he didn't know whom to blame. Was it his brother's fault, who wanted to protect his younger brother from any harm at any cost? Or was it that poor scholar's fault, who suffered years of sufferings without any reason? Who suffered injustice, pain, lost everything, who was supposed to be a divine god but had to become a supreme ghost and watch someone else sitting on his own place?
Past years, Shi QingXuan thought over and over on this matter and concluded that it was actually his own fault. He should have been able to defeat that reverend of empty words. He should have been strong. Or he shouldn't have born. He shouldn't have lived his childhood as a girl. He should've just killed himself. Then his brother would be at peace. He Xuan would've become a god. It would be a perfect ending. He ruined it all.
"Look, Ol' Feng is again thinking. Now he would start saying nonsense again," Shi QingXuan snapped out of this thought hearing the voice. "Hey, who says I talk nonsense? What I told you guys, wasn't it all true?"
"Ol' Feng, if you're really god than why would you stay with us? Hu?"
Shi QingXuan had gone back and forth a lot with this question so it wasn't hard for him to answer, "Of course I'm here to save the world."
"He has gone mad again", everyone sang the song.
Shi QingXuan chuckled slightly.
"OK, that's enough. My friend brought us all some foods. Let's eat."
Hearing the name of food, everyone rushed. Shi QingXuan didn't mind. He sat with them. But he didn't feel any hunger within himself. Food certainly reminded him of someone.
He quickly got up and went to the corner, sat down under a wide tree. Gentle breeze was blowing. He closed his eyes.
Maybe no one would understand why he decided to live this miserably rather than dying. He actually couldn't bear to leave the world. It's such a shame but he really really loved living. Watching the earth, sky and everything between this, were too beautiful. The royal pavilion was also very beautiful. The side, small area of rain master was beautiful too. The mountains within snow was beautiful, the green mountains were beautiful too. The sunrise were pretty, the sunset was pretty too. The dark night was pretty and the bright night sky with thousands of stars was pretty too.
The sea and the river .... well he kinda started to forget the sight of them.
That's right, after the incident, he never went near the sea or river. It reminds him of just painful memories. The nightmares which hasn't stopped since then, are all related to water.
He slowly lied down, put his healthy arm under his head and his other arm dropped lifelessly.
He closed his eye, sighed, uttered a few words, "I'm sorry, brother. I'm sorry, Mingxiong. It's none of your fault. It's all my fault."
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A/N: Before sliding into the main story, I want to present the current state of both protagonists.
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