Chapter 14🥀
Bibitawan
"Hero!" Jules angry voice made me come back to my sense and I immediately took a step away from raya.
"Jules..."
'Fuck, I'm guilty as hell! Jules doesn't deserve this!'
Naglakad siya palapit sa amin at huminto sa pagitan namin ni Raya. Jules throwed a dagger look at the both of us.
But she was more angry at Raya. On the other hand, parang walang kinatatakotan si Raya.
"What the hell is happening, hero?"
"It's not like what you're thinking." oh hell it's what you're thinking.
"Then what!?" she sounded like she's about to slap someone any moment right now. "Alam kong gusto mo ako hero dahil ramdam ko 'yon at may tiwala ako sayo pero sa malanding babaeng 'yan, Wala!"
I heard raya's dark chuckle. "Oh? Ako? Really?" sounding clueless.
"Oo!"
"Then you should've leashed your dog."
I looked at Raya, damn, she got me there. "She was just trying to grab her bag from me---"
"At bakit mo naman hawak ang bag niya?!"
"Jules, Let's talk about this in a calm---"
"I am freaking calm!"
"Yeah and I can really feel your calmness." raya said in a sarcastic tone.
"Bitch!"
"Thank you."
"Argh! Look hero! Iyan ba ang babaeng ipagpapalit mo sa akin?"
What the...
"Jules..." I warned.
"---Babaeng inaamin na isa siyang bitch?" she continued.
"Well at least I said it, ikaw? Kelan mo aamin na isa kang obsessed war freak bitch?"
"You---" she tried to launched a slap at Raya but I caught her hand on time. Nakita ko kung paano nasaktan ang ekspressiyon niya dahil sa ginawa ko. "Y-you're defending her n-now?"
Fucked. I don't want to see her cry because of me.
"Jules..."
"Forget it!" she harshly grabbed her hand from my hold. "Don't ever call or talked to me again! Wa'g mo narin akong ligawan dahil simula ngayon basted ka na! Ayaw ko na sa'yo!" at tumakbo siya paalis.
Napasabunot ako sa buhok at gusto kong sapakin ang haligi. Potangina! Pinaghirapan ko siyang ligawan, gustohin ako... ngayon... basted na ako!
Fucked, it's not that I'm frustrated about, I'm fucking angry at myself! I am so messed up! Even my feelings are messed up so fucking bad.
Bumaling ako kay raya na ngayon na sa tabi ko pa at nakatitig sa akin. I saw how emotionless her look was, kung hindi ko siya mabasa nuon mas lalo na ngayon.
I don't see fog nor her light, Her eyes is filled with thick emptiness.
Napahinto ang mga mata ko sa bag niya na hawak ko parin. I grit my teeth when I remember her words, the words she said at Jules makes my blood boil.
I don't understand why I like a woman like her, she's scary and What I hate about a woman is all in her!
She's very hard to read.
She's not for me.
I don't want her.
I will not like her.
I should not love her.
This infatuation will be gone in no time.
I matched her cold look. Binitiwan ko ang bag niya dahilan upang malaglag ito sa sahig.
Wala na akong pake sa nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Fuck what I want, I only want what I like.
Tinalikuran ko siya at nagsimulang maglakad paalis sa lugar nang napahinto ako sa biglang pagbukas ng kanyang bibig upang mag-salita.
"Sa oras na hindi mo dampotin ang bag ko sa sahig, Katulad ng pagbitaw mo sa bola at ngayon sa bag ko, Ganoon din kita bibitawan hero."
I stilled for a second but I didn't waver, I am already firm from what I stand and what I believe. I don't want her.
And so that's what I thought... pero natatakot ako, may parte sa akin na takot sa sinabi niya, na bumitaw siya.
