Chapter 23🥀
Love Yourself
Nagmamadali kong sinunod si raya pagkatapos ng mainit na komusyon kanina. Alam kong galit siya at ayaw niya pa akong makita pero hindi ko naman kayang pigilan ang sarili ko na huwa'g mag-alala pagkatapos ng nangyari hindi na ako mapakali.
"Raya, teka lang..."
Huminto siya at naiinis akong hinarap. "Bakit ba hero?"
"May dala akong malamig, let me put it on your cheek so it won't sore---" she cut my words after the click of her tongue.
"Bakit ka ba ganyan? Hah?! You ask me if I'm okay, you care for me as if you have feelings for me---"
"Haven't I made it clear to you? Yes, I like you, na gustong gusto kita hiraya!"
"Don't give me that bullshit again hero dahil hinding-hindi ako maniniwala sayo! You like me? Oh please, don't be ridiculous! We only knew each other for months and I thought you hated my face but now you liked me? Really? Impossible!" she laugh and shake her head. "Don't make things complicated." she spat.
I watched her walked out the hallway with anger in her eyes. Napahilamos ako sa aking mukha gamit ang aking mga palad, nasa bahay na pala ako at ngayon nakatingin sa cellphone kung saan nandon ang number at pangalan ni raya sa screen.
Should I call her?
No I shouldn't,
Galit na galit siya sa'kin baka hindi ako makauwi ng buhay.
Jokes aside, I really do feel guilty.
Sana naging mabuti ang trato ko sa kanya sa una e'de hindi magiging ganito ka komplekado ang sitwasyon naming dalawa. Damn! I feel like a bastard---No I'm an a--hole.
I rested my head on the pillow. Ilang minuto ako sa ganuong posisyon habang nakapikit ang aking mga mata. I almost broke my neck after hearing my phone ringing in tone, senyales na may tumatawag.
After reading who it was I close my eyes and blew a loud breath.
"Jules," I greet. "Napatawag ka?"
"Gusto ko lang sana mag sorry sa ginagawa ng mga k-kaibigan ko hero." I broke a smile.
"I don't know Jules, hindi naman ako ang nasampal at hindi ikaw ang sumampal. I wish your friends could apologize to Hiraya instead."
"Oh-okay, uh, cody..."
"Hmm?"
"W-wala, sige... bye." she said after hanging up the call.
I close my eyes and letting my body rest the softness of the mattress. Somehow closing my eyes like this and feeling the comfort of my bed with her picture flashing in my head. The coldness of her eyes and warmth of her cheeks bringing upon a smile that resonate sunshine in my bitter days.
