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Previously on Reden...

POV: Bill Kaulitz

Days before...

In this chapter...

POV: Bill Kaulitz

Since everything happened between Anne and me yesterday, the atmosphere had been very tense within the band. We were all together trying to compose for the new album, but no one was saying anything.

–We only have two songs ready so far,– I say, looking at everyone, and Tom seemed to be in another dimension, very distracted and pensive.

–We need seven more,– Georg says, and I nod.

–Bill, have you thought of anything?– Gustav asks, and I look at them.

–Let's make a song about forbidden love,– I suggest, and soon we all exchange glances, knowing exactly why I wanted to make that song.

–That could be a good idea,– Gustav says, but Tom shakes his head.

–We'd better not touch on that subject for now,– Tom says, looking at everyone, and I furrow my brow.

–Why not? It's just a song, Tom,– I say, looking at him.

–Is it just a song for you?– Tom asks, looking into my eyes, and I sigh. –Obviously, the song is for Cecilia,– he says, staring at me.

–It was shit what happened, Tom,– I say, approaching him.

–Yeah, man, I know, but you chose this. Life is made of choices,– he says, looking at me. –You always knew that Ceci was underage and that having any kind of relationship with her would be wrong. Anyone with two brain cells knows that,– he says, and with each word, my heart squeezed. They weren't even trying to understand my side; they just judged me.

–I let myself be carried away because she looks identical to Anne,– I say, running my hand over my forehead, then thinking.

–Don't bring Anne into this...– he starts.

–Anne chose you. It's easy for you to say these things about Ceci with Anne by your side,– I say, looking at Tom, who furrows his brow, looking at me.

–What? It wasn't a choice, Bill. Anne and I already had a thing when you entered the game. You chose to become Anne's second choice, and what do you think? By getting in the middle of us, she would choose you?– he says, looking at me, and I furrow my brow, staring at him.

–Guys,– Georg says, trying to get our attention.

–You only saw Anne as an object, Tom. I saw her with different eyes,– I say, standing face to face with him.

–Stop talking nonsense. I never saw Anne as an object. I fell in love with her the moment I saw her, and you know it. You embarked on our journey knowing that I was Anne's chosen one,– Tom says, making me chuckle slightly, then I rest my face in my hands.

–This isn't fair,– I say, looking at everyone, then I sit on the stool, head bowed.

–You know what's not fair, Bill? You jeopardizing our career because of your neediness. You're always trying to find someone who loves you but never succeed, and now we have to be extremely careful not to lose everything we've achieved because of your lack of judgment,– Tom says, looking at me, and I remain with my head bowed. –Damn it, do you know what you did? If this comes to light, everyone is screwed. You'll go to jail, and we'll have to hear shit asking if we knew and why we were accomplices to this,– he adds, and I quickly stand up, feeling stressed.

–I'm sorry, okay?– I say, standing up and looking at Tom firmly. –I screwed up, but I won't talk to Cecilia anymore, and I won't, okay? You and your girlfriend can rest assured that none of this will come to light, and our lives will continue as usual, alright?– I say, leaving the room and quickly heading to the terrace. When I get there, I lean my hands on the edge of the place, taking a deep breath. I was trembling and feeling very bad; I couldn't contain the tears, I just let them come out. –Shit.

–I love them both, but I wish we had never met them,– Georg says, leaving the rehearsal room along with Gustav.

POV: Tom Kaulitz

**Current days...**

It was already late at night, and Ceci had only calmed down now. I look at the smaller one sleeping in my bed and then pull the blanket over her shoulder, brushing her hair away from her face, looking at her. I don't know what happened between her and Bill, but I know it wasn't good. She was very upset; you could see that her heart was shattered. It must have been something external that led her to the abyss. Anyway, I gave her all my support. I like Ceci; she's an incredible girl.