Finding You My Symphony || SB19 PABLO

Prologue

"Is this what you really like Christine? Ang maghiwalay tayo?" tanung ni Pablo sa girlfriend nya.

It is supposed to be an ordinary day for them, but turns out to be the last day na magkakasama sila.
Christine bids her goodbye to Pablo and her plan to end their relationship.

"Yeah.. Pablo, I can't do this.. ayoko makipagrelasyon sa taong di ko kasama.. you're going back and forth sa abroad para sa training mo, while I'll be staying for good sa US para sa studies ko.." dahilan ni Christine.

Dahilan na di matanggap ni Pablo, mahal na mahal nya si Christine at higit kanino pa man, eto ang taong inaasahan nyang hindi bibitaw sa kanya.. pero mukhang mali sya.

"Pano ako? Mahal kita, Tine.. sabihin mo lang sakin kaya ko naman iwanan to lahat para sayo e. Gagawin ko, just tell me, wag mo lang ako hiwalayan at iwanan, please.." pagmamakaawa ni Pablo, hinawakan nya ang kamay ni Christine pero binawa din ito agad sa kanya.

"Pablo, naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo? Bat ganun? First you give up your job for that training para sa passion mo then now igigive up mo para sakin? I can't believe you.. I can't be with the person na walang strong conviction sa gusto nya. Ang bilis mong bumitaw sa lahat!"

"Ikaw din naman eh, binibitawan mo ko, yung meron tayo!" Pagtulo ng luha ni Pablo, he doesn't want to shout or be rude pero yun ang nararamdaman nya.

But Christine remains calm, no tension will be seen in her face, but determination to do what she already plans to do.

"Because, I have reasons! I didn't see na maggogrow ako kasama ka, ganun ka din. I'm doing this not just for me, but for you too. Sating dalawa, mas nag papakamature na nga ako, which is supposed to be dapat ikaw! I'm done, Pablo, I'm done."

"Because I can't. I can't breathe, live and wake up everyday na hindi ikaw, Tine! What am I supposed to do? Ikaw ng buhay ko!" Pag iyak ni Pablo.

Christine keeps her face strong, seeing Pablo like this really breaks her heart in pieces, pero nakikita nya na hesitant si Pablo ibigay ang best nya sa lahat dahil lagi syang cinoconsider ni Pablo, ilang opportunities na ang nawala dito dahil ayaw syang iwan o malayo man lang. Pero kahit na ganun, nakikita nya ang sobrang paghihinayang ni Pablo at nang pamilya neto for those opportunities na di nya kinuha because of her. Kaya kahit masakit, mahirap.. wala syang choice kundi lumayo.

"Pablo, please.. l'm begging you.. give me the freedom I need. Mahal kita, pero ayoko na."

Pablo lost all his strength left on him, how can this girl tell that she loves him while begging for her freedom, freedom from his love?

"Christine, mahal na mahal kita. Sana alam mo yun.." Pablo can't control the pain in his voice, the tears that keep falling on his eyes.

"I know, Pablo. But--"

"Sige. If this is what you want, malaya kana.. sorry, sorry kasi di ko alam na ayaw mo na. If this is what makes you happy, go. I'm setting you free. Just promise me to take care of yourself, just be good and do well everyday. Because that's what I always do for you and planning to do.. pero, yeah. I'm letting you go."

"Pau.." she whispered in between the tears that started to flow on her eyes.

"Bye..Christine.." this is the hardest move Pablo ever made, ang tumalikod at maglakad palayo sa babaeng minahal nya ng sobra, sa babaeng naging mundo nya, naging inspirasyon nya. He felt betrayed not only by Christine for breaking his heart, but also his tears betrayed him for falling continuously.

This is what heartbreak really feels,
You're alive, but dead inside..

"Sorry, Pablo..sorry.." pag iyak ni Christine habang tinatanaw palayo si Pablo sa kanya. Pero eto ang nakikita nyang tama nyang gawin.

It's not for her freedom, it's for Pablo's freedom.
At sya, makukulong sa lungkot nang pagkawala ng taong mahal nya.

Years,

By years,

He did everything to forget, and to move on.

To keep his passion and achieve his dream..

Praying,

That someday,

Somehow,

He can show her,
That he did it.

"In loving memory of
   Christine Joy Cruz
                RIP"

But,

It seems impossible now.