Destiel (Highschool AU) I Like You...a Lot

Chapter 29

*Trigger warning* *Self harm warning* 

Castiel's P.O.V. 

my heart shatters at the sight i am seeing now

i was smiling happily

 knowing i am going to see the person that i like hanging around all of the time

maybe it's something more then that

but i think it's too soon for that

i see the pond and someone by the tree 

thinking it's dean i walk over to the tree 

and behind it, was lisa on top of dean

her hands pinned his hands to the ground 

and her lips crashed onto his

i did not know what to say

i see dean pushing lisa off and looking at me with wide eyes

why would he do this to me?

i did not know what to say, i could feel all the tiny broken pieces of my heart

i hated this feeling, it hurt

bad

so i ran, like i do when i'm scared, like i did when crowley told dean i was gay for the first time

look how far we've came

but it was all fake, he never really liked me

well I HATE HIM!!

it hurts saying that 

i felt completely numb

i could hear him calling after me

but i don't stop 

that is until i run into a force that knocks me off the ground and unto my back

the figure straps me to the ground 

all i could hear was "I'M SORRY CASTIEL!!" 

Lisa's P.O.V. 

dean pushes me off of him and i look at castiel and see his broken face

oh god what did i do

that's it

it's not worth it

i could see the way castiel absolutely broke

i can't do this

the guilt would eat me alive

i run after castiel

it's a good thing i have been running track lately

wow can't believe i just said that

i run after him

i run around a tree so that i end up in front of him

he runs into me and i strap him to the ground

"I'M SORRY CASTIEL!!"  i yell at him 

he is trying to get out of my grip 

but i hold on tight soon dean comes over looking at us 

"LET GO OF ME!!" castiel yells 

i try and hold on but he breaks free and runs out of the forest

 i am too tired of catching up and i could see dean was tired as well

i can't believe i just did that