Lone [MATURE HS]

Notes: Part 1

Tuesday.

Harry is undeniably perfect. A perfect world would have been destined to him if it weren't for me. How badly should I be feeling...but I don't. I feel agony.

Within everything he has, he's got too much even with both of his parents out of the picture. He still gets the attention, still gets the perfect grades, still...people adore him. He is a magnet to benefit...and it makes me feel agony.

Tara likes him. Pathetic girl. Who's too clever and smart to associate with the wrong people, yet she falls right under Harry's pitiful act. I wonder how much he likes her. And I put it to the test everyday.

They meet almost everyday at the vending machine. Just last week...I followed him to a party where undeniably Tara was present. They kissed at her car and I felt pure pure agony. He takes the championships and he gets a beautiful girl...still...

And I get so...angry when I see them together. I've seen them too much. Too much. Too much. Too...

Tara...I needed to know about her. See her weakness and strengths. Last week I watched her change from her window, noticing she is evidently almost flawless. A body I know Harry will enjoy, and it makes me even more furious. How does he do it...how does he attract so much good when the bad seems to outweigh everything else?

Tara likes to walk around in comfortable clothes, sing to herself and read. She thinks about Harry a lot...lately even more so. I walked into her room, searching for anything that I would like to keep and she wouldn't notice. I rummaged through her clothes. Told myself this is purely for my knowledge.

Harry, besides the championships, isolated himself from everyone and anything but Tara. He draws her delicately, not missing a detail. He puts so much effort into this project, and I know it will be great. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

I know about Tara's mom. She works a lot, lately even more. I know when Tara's alone, I know when Harry's alone.

I must know more. If I want to make things right.

- J. K. P