»Faded« // Min Yoongi [#BangtanAwards]

a bridge

"Jagi...Come on...Wake up..." Yoongi said

"I can't." I said.

After my dad killed himself, 3 Weeks have passed.

I didn't go to his funeral.

But I felt so depressed the last weeks.

I haven't got parents anymore.

Just Yoongi.

I just laid in my bed.

I didn't eat so much.

I just slept.

"Please... I don't want to see you like this." He said and I get mad.

"Yoongi, If you don't want to see me, then go away, okay?" I said.

"Oh gosh. Don't be mad. I'm just worried." He said

"Shut the f*ck up, okay? I want to be alone. You get on my nerves. Just leave. I'm tired. I just want to sleep." I yelled

"Well. I'm so fucking sick of that. YOU get on my nerves. I know, your father died and you had got a really bad time, but don't be mad at ME. I was here for you. And you?" He yelled at me and grabbed his jacket.

I could stop him, but I haven't got the power for that.

He just slammed the door and left.

You can't tell people to go and then blame them for leaving.

I felt so sorry.

He was right.

It was all my fault.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid that you are going to end up like everyone else that has ever left me.

I'm afraid that one day you aren't going to see the quirky little things I do as endearing or cute, but rather annoying and obnoxious.

I'm afraid that you won't see the things I say and do as you do now, that you will eventually grow annoyed of me.

I'm afraid that you'll see my flaws for what they are, disgusting.

I'm afraid that you'll up and leave just like they all do.

please don't leave me.

But he left.

I tried to grab my phone, but I can't.

I should not have shouted at him.

And I've always prayed that you will never leave me.

Have I locked up crying in my room when you went and I wish I could hear again how much you love me.

After I slept for 2 Hours, I tried to get up and went to the bathroom.

Wow, Jennie.

You look bad.

I took a shower and maybe I stood in the shower for 45 min.

But this gave me a little bit of strength.

I looked at my phone and there were 5 missed calls.

From Yoongi.

I don't call him back because I wanted to go to him.

I put on black jeans and a pink hoodie and put my hair into a bun.

Before I'll go to Yoongi, I drink a cup of water.

I lost weight, I guess.

I felt cold and weak and empty.

"Okay. Just go." I said to myself and closed the door.

I had a key for his apartment, so I used it.

Looks like, he wasn't here, but then I heard a laugh.

Of a woman.

So walked slowly into the living room and there was yoongi.

With a girl.

And this girl sat next to yoongi.

And hugged him.

It was Melina.