MPAM (Under Major Editing)

Chapter 37 - bonus chapter

Chapter 37

(Jay's POV)

I was laying on the floor with every self doubt in the world. I gave up my life for her and I was selfish and didn't wait for him to arrive. She could be exactly like me because I'm not there to finish the job off, I wanted Abby to have a life fir herself one she always wanted and now she could be dead

I can feel her pain but I was stupid and gave her my life when I should have waited for Chase to get here

She was leaning on me. I think. I can feel a nose against my skin and the soft whimpers of a wolf, its Abby. I smiled

She shifted and began to snuzzle her snout into me. How I wanted to reach out and grab her. Hold her like theres no tomorrow and now I wont even get to look at her again

Im so fucking selfish I want to kill myself

She was crying for me when we should have both been killing Death. Ive never felt so much hatred for one being before and to make it worse Abby has to stand alone

I've been pushing her away all those times because I though she wasn't ready for the truth but in all honesty it was me for never believed in her until now. I shod have never doubted Abby but when I found her she was as broken as a child and in this past few months she's bewildered even me. Who knew someone could be this strong, I rolled my shoulder when I felt pain shoot through my arm but I needed to say it to her one last time

"I love you" I choked out

I heard a howl through the room and began to weep internally. I dont want her to see me so vulnerable it wouldn't be fair. I just want her to live, a normal life.

I was going to give her a normal life but I wanted everything sorted first, all those years of preparation and training and it flew out the window as soon as I found her, Abby

I didn't expect my mate to be the Mist Werewolf but she was, I had everything calculated except the chosen one. How I regret not showing her the love she needed. I've noticed her ever since I met her and I couldn't keep my eyes off her

She was broken and beautiful and I envied whoever had her heart yet I had it and crushed it. I chose destiny over her and now I regret that the most. I never gave her the life she needed, wanted

I could feel a male wolf fast approaching but I didn't care, my time is up and I can't even fight for whats mine. That doesn't mean I won't try

I cut off my mindlink to her so she couldn't hear me, I've seen enough of her tears. They run like a waterfall, harsh and beautiful. I caused it

I felt Aiden just reach the barrier of the territory. I growled no one should know our location especially not Aiden, a lower rank than I

I'm going to miss her

Aiden pushed through the front door and Abby flinched at his entranced and I felt her in front of me. Still even in my state she was protecting me, how stupid. She should be saving herself, I'm a goner

The feeling of Death was nothing compared to the heartbreak I caused my mate

She would suffer long and hard after I'm gone and I didn't want that. I needed a reason to fight and she was it

My mindlink was intercepting their conversation but because I cut Abby off I couldn't hear Aiden otherwise she'd be more fragile. She needed to be strong for the both of us

I opened my mindlink for a brief moment allowing myself to hear their conversation

"Go, Goddammitt!" Aiden yelled